Why me ?

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Storms POV

I woke up at like 3am and couldn't fall back to sleep

I walk downstairs and into the kitchen where I switch on the lights and go to get myself a bottle of water from the fridge.

I sit on one of the stools and play on my phone for a little

I walk to the back door and see the light on by the bench swing

I see a figure sat on the bench, it's harmony

All 3 of them have keys to the house so that's how she got out

I slowly open the door and walk up to her and sit next to her and hold her hand

"What are you doing out here?" I ask

"I can't sleep" she replies

"Real reason? I know what your lying" I reply

"I dunno, I feel like no one cares how I am anymore. Everything is invoked with the baby if it's asked to me" she sighs and says

"Well how are you, not the baby, you as a person"

Tears start to fall down her face and I pull her in a hug

"Really traumatised" she sobs

"I know Bebe, I know what it's like. It's so shitty" I say still hugging her

"I'm not tierd I'm just drained, like emotionally. My brain is tierd" she replies

"Do what momma does" I say

"What's that"

"She writes how she feels and turns it into music, it's so sweet to watch her. She can write sad or happy"

"I'm angry"

"Why are you angry?"

"For getting pregnant, I'm just angry at myself"

"And you have all the right in the world to be angry" I reply

"Wait what?"

"Just Not at yourself" i reply

"But I am, and I can't not be"

"You know, someone once told me. Some situations you can be not happy with or even angry, but it's what you make of it that counts"

"I told you that" she smiles

"Sometimes you have to take you own advice" I say and she nods

"I just wish there was something I could do to change it"

"You can't change what happening, you have to change your view on it. See the good things instead of the negative" I say

"Tell me about the day you had me"

"I was at my friends house, I was often there because of how my foster parents treated me. We were at the table, her parents where like mine too. I started to have sharp long pains in my stomach and I was rushed to the hospital and my water broke after about 10 minutes of being there, half an hour later I was pushing, and this was scary it hurt so badly. There where people shouting everywhere, and my best friend at the time stayed by my side and held my hand the entire time. I had you and you where rushed somewhere because you where not breathing, I was crying and shouting to be able to see you. But thank god, you started breathing again. The fist time I held you it felt like my heart was complete, you opened your big brown eyes and just looked up at me, you where beautiful and I just started crying on end. Later on I was being discharged but I didn't want to go back to my foster home so me and my friend at the time just walked around the outside of the hospital, with you in a stroller sleeping. She offered to let me stay at hers for however long I needed but I couldn't leave my brother, your uncle on his own. And my foster parents threatened to call the police if I didn't go back there, I may have not seen you a lot in the firt few weeks, but we got different foster parents soon. They treated us badly but they let me have you to myself as I wouldn't let them near you anyway. Your first word was Mama, and I cried"

"That's so sweet" she smiles

"But I didn't cry of happiness, I cried because I believed that you should be calling someone else that" I confess

"I hate myself for it, but I was ready to give you up. Let another family have you. I am so glad I had never done that, I have my beautiful girl with me. I would if never forgave myself is I did that. But look at us now, I promise you will not regret this baby, the first few weeks maybe even months will be hard but you will find happiness within it"

"I hope so" she replies

"I know so, I love you"

"I love you too"

"Come on, let's go in and you can go back to bed"

"Ok" she groans

I help her up as we walk inside and up that stairs and walk to our own rooms

I walk in my room and smile to myself

"What you smiling at baby?" A tired voice asks me

"Oh I just helped harmony out with a few things, I didnt wake you, did I?"

"No baby" she replies half asleep

I walk over to her and get back into bed and placing my head on her chest

"Are you ok" she asks quietly like she's about to fall asleep

"I'm fine bubba, now go to sleep"

"But I don't want you to lay awake without me" she says slowly and tiredly

"I'll fall asleep not long after, now don't force yourself to be awake, go to sleep"

"Ok" she whispers and falls back to sleep

I lay there hugging her and smiling

She is too precious

How the FUCK did I score this one

I love her

I would literally die for her

I'm glad I could give her everything she's wanted in life

This shit is so cute