𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐚𝐧 - [2] ( Hiatus)

02

" mother i am glad you are doing great " hanzade grabbed my hand gently as she smiled

" You don't have to come everyday ,you will get tired . I am now fine " i reassured her but she didn't want to leave me alone

" I will come by from time to time and see how you are doing " her expression finally turned bright

" We can also go to Edirne all together " as i heard edirne memories started drowning me and she noticed that my expression chaned

" I am sorry , i didn't want to " she nervously spoke but i just smiled at her

" Don't worry about it , come on let's leave my room and walk " i grabbed her hand and walked towards the door and the palace was very cold as winter came by this fast

" It's getting colder " i said trying to warm my hands

" Hanzade mother ? " we heard selim call from behind as we both turned around

" is this how you escape without bringing me with you "he approached us and hugged me tightly as i widely smiled

" yes this is the smile i want you to keep , never hide it from us " he said patting my back

" come one " i said bringing him to my other side as we walked down the harem

We walked together until we arrived to the garden where we settled

" Selim , hanzade i am afraid you catch a cold " i caressed their hands slowly but they both chuckled

" Don't worry about us " selim responded and then we started talking and discussing about everything until the rest of them all joined there .

We were all gathered in the garden and as they talked i stared at each one of them and realized how precious they are , i was going to commit the biggest sin by leaving them .

I thank god for letting me live with them again and see their beautiful faces everyday but something was still missing , i felt some emptiness but the 7 of them made everything better .

" Mother i should dicuss an important matter " murad stared at his mother

" Murad ... " sah glared at her brother but that didn't stop him from speaking

" I decided to lock uncle mustafa in his room again and for Halime sultan i already exiled her to amasya and for My aunt dilruba she asked herself to leave with her mother " murad spoke with so much confidence which i liked but i thought of Mustafa

He is very close to my heart and i wouldn't want to see him suffer again

" Murad , your uncle is mentally unstable and locking him again will just torture him " i stated my opnion carefully

" I am not ready to risk anything " he simply responded before looking away

I didn't have time to recover myself and state matters were the last thing i could ever think of but besides mustafa's locking was just not it for me .

The night finally came in and we all had to go sleep , i entered my room and stared at Hajar cleaning my bed with the help of two other girls

" You can leave " i dismissed those two girls and kept hajar with me

" Hajar did you see cennet by any occasion " i asked putting my earrings in her hand

" Cennet will leave tomorrow as she already took the permission from his majesty " she said looking anywhere but not me

" how ? Call her for me " i ordered her and she quickly left my room as i tried to understand the reason behind her sudden decision

After some seconds , cennet came in as she had her head down . I dismissed hajar so i could stay with cennet alone

" Cennet " i called and she didn't look at me at all , she walked towards me and kneeled down taking my robe in her hand

" Forgive me but i can no longer serve you " she whispered in a low tone , i touched her shoulder singnaling her to get up

" Cennet why ? " i asked putting my hand on her shoulder

" I cannot look at you anymore since what happened that time " her voice cracked at the end

" cennet " i put my finger under he chin and pushed it up " you saved me , you saved my life . You knew that i could do anything for him and you stopped me from killing myself " she finally looked at me but the gaze in her eyes changed

" You won't leave me in the middle of the road right ? You have been with me since forever . I already lost ahmed i don't wanna lose another faithful person " i quickly hugged her as she gasped not knowint what to do

" I am your daughter cennet , don't use honorifics with me or anything . I grew up with you and you made me learn everything in this hell " i continued

" I am glad.. i thought you wouldn't want to see my face at all after i betrayed you " she said nervously but i just plastered a warm smile on my face

" As long as i live you will remain in your position and right next to me " i said staring at her deeply