𝐌𝐲 𝐬𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐚𝐧 - [2] ( Hiatus)

20

I stayed the whole night thinking of what happened yesterday as gulumser speaking about her love towards my son made me shocked and i didn't even know how to respond or react .

I got dressed up as my mind was full of thoughts , after i had my breakfast i immediately went to my diary and opened it . As i was counting i remembered that today marked seven years since ahmed's passing away

" Cennet " i called closing my diary putting it in its right place

Cennet went in and bowed

" We will read quran today , gather everyone and we will visit ahmed's tomb today " i said approaching her

" As you order " before she can go i stopped her

" Cennet , is osman here " i asked and she nodded

" He accepted a concubine yesterday but she still didn't get out of his room " i nodded

" When he wakes up notice him of our plans today " she bowed

" His majesty has already gave the orders yesterday to read quran next to sultan ahmed's tomb and suggested to do the prayers " i smiled knowing how osman thought about his father

A maid suddenly went in as we both looked at her

" Valide sultan , Sehzade mehmed wants to see you " i nodded smiling as mehmed walked in

" Cennet " i said giving her the signal to leave as my gaze went back to mehmed

" Mehmed my son " i smiled staring at his beautiful face

" Good morning to the most beautiful mother ever " he said before kissing my hand

" Come " i grabbed his hand making him sit on my couch .

" How do you feel lately " i asked concerned as he nodded smiling

" I am fine i am living great and at the same time happy that me and osman are going to hunts together " i caressed his cheek lightly

" Your sisters always ask about you , last time dilasub came all the way here but didn't find you " he chuckled

" She always misses me ,i will go visit her tomorrow if you want we can go together " he offered gaining a nod from me

" Of course i will go " i warmly smiled taking his hand in mine

" Today is an important day " he continued before my smile faded away

" seven years " i said looking down but he held my chin up again

" What would've happened to us if you passed away that day ? " he spoke " murad would've killed us " he said laying on my shoulder

" What's important is that i am with you now , as long as i live not hair will be removed from your head without my consent " i said tapping his forearm lightly

Mehmed had a very special place in my heart as he was the youngest one . Me and ahmed wanted to have our last child but we couldn't as mehmed's birth has brought us a lot of joy and filled the place and made us not think about it ever again

" Come on mother i should go , i have a sword lesson with my brother husein " i nodded as he got up bowing lightly before he left

May allah protect him for me .

After he left the maids announced to me that muazzez was leaving , but before she could do i asked to see safiye . After cennet brought safiye to me and hugged her , muazzez wanted to speak to me and i honestly didn't want to hear any of her lies but still accepted her .

She walked towards me wanting to take my hand but i backed away from her

" Forgive me i will try to make it up , i hope i will comeback again and by then you would'ce forgave me " she regretfully said showing a sad expression

" Until murad recovers you'll never step a foot in here except if i ask for it " i said straightforwardly

She nodded after bowing then left , after i got dressed up for today's event . I stared at my black dress who only brought me bad memories  in my life , i put my headscarf around me and left my room accompanied with Haci and cennet  .

The harem was all quiet as quran was being readed , i stepped into the large hallway and took my seat in the middle as after some moments my three daughters accompanied me .

The woman continued on reading quran as i closed my eyes as i reverberated in slience , after hours of reading . We all started praying for ahmed , everyone was into the mood that i even forgot that we should go visit ahmed's tomb .

Afterwards food started being distribued between the aghas and everyone in the harem while me and my daughters and ayse sultan left to visit my late husband's tomb . We arrived quickly so we entered the mosque quickly and alligned infront of his tomb

My heart started clenching and my mind was mindblown as i started thinking of how fast these years have went by , but i felt his absence everyday and everysecond it's like he took with him half of my mind with him .

In these seven years i patted my own back and wipped my own tears but most importantly he left behind our children who filled the emptiness in my heart