happy thoughts bounce around in my head
they go left and right and left again
they bounce and bounce and start breaking stuff
It's getting kind of dangerous for me here
But they're happy thoughts
And i should be fine with thatHappy thoughts singing in harmony in my brain
Loud and clear about the good things in life
My blessings one by one
Like chanting it echoes in my hollow body
Loud and now less clear, just noise
By millions of happy thoughts
But they're happy thoughts
and happy thoughts are good
So i should be fine with thatthe thoughts would've drowned me, she said
And just in time she came
took me out of control and filled me up
With happy thoughts, all over
my thoughts, she said, were all wrong
And happy thoughts need to bounce in them
Deteriorate them, wipe them out
and change my bad habitand now the happy thoughts are here
They're round and white, they're happy thoughts
And that's good
I swallow them whole and free them
happy thoughts immigrating in my brain
sucking all the water that was once a problem
So I won't drown
only happy thoughts live here
And I can't fucking stand it—
But they told me it really should be fine like thatmy own thoughts, they're all wrong
happy thoughts living in my body
dancing and smiling and laughing and killing all my bad habits
and I should be fine with that
I should really be fine with thatBut I can't fucking stand it
the happy thoughts are late today
and it's all my fault
yesterday's happy faded away
the new dose is waiting
But so am I
I see the box and the box stares back
Today my head is getting peace
the thoughts, they're all wrongbut they're mine
Today there's no party I'm forced to be invited
Today I'm crying cause it's my turn to have a party
And in parties I feel lonely
bad habits
Bad habits all dancing in my head
And I'm dancing along
In my parties I know no one will come to bounce around and smile
No one will come at all
and sotoday Im sad
At last
And I'm fucking fine with that
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My unsent poems
PoetryPoems that have a destination but will forever stay in my drawer