The Therapist.{Billie Eilish} G!P

Twenty One: Part 1

Billie's POV:

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As I embrace my mom at security I couldn't help but feel the pit of my stomach sink.

Is my life about to change? This is the question now constantly running through my mind. Furthermore; if so, what happens now?

15 minutes prior:

"Ugh, could we be driving any slower" I lean my head against the window, whilst checking my phone for the millionth time.

Still no texts from Violetta.

"Bil, relax a little honey, we are going as fast as we can" my mom tries to soothe my mood, her hand resting on my leg.

I don't reply, my head isn't even in this moment. All I can think about is what put my girlfriend in the hospital.

I run through the facts; she fainted but was still conscious. She was found clutching her stomach, like does she have endometriosis? That shit makes you faint from the pain. Maybe she is on her period? I mean, she was a little tripped out by me possibly cheating, it could be her hormones right?

Fuck. See, these are my thoughts.

"I can hear your thoughts Billie" my mom states matter of factly.

"Hmm" I hum in reply.

"Sweetie, you're being safe yeah?" She questions out of the blue.

I look down at the seatbelt across my chest and waist, creasing my brows. What?

"The fuck you mean safe mom? I don't have time to decipher your shit today" I run my hand through my hair, turning back to look out the window. I see her reflection in the glass as she rolls her eyes and shakes her head at me.

"What" I say a little more harshly than intended, but I'm so stressed and now I'm getting irritated.

"For someone so smart, you're being pretty stupid right now if you don't know what I'm talking about Billie" her tone now changed too.

My face clearly showing a puzzled expression.

"Sex! Sex Billie, are you being safe? I am not a naive mother and think my nearly 19 year old who is in a relationship isn't having sex!" She shouts at me. Lucky we drove ourselves to the airport.

Lord, take me now.

"Fuck mom" I feel my cheeks heat up.

"Violetta is in the hospital Billie, and the reasoning behind it, please tell me the thought of her being pregnant has crossed your mind?" At her words my blood runs cold and I freeze.

Holy fucking shit.

"N-no" I stutter, my hand finding my forehead.

"Oh Bil" she sighs.

"Fuck. You're right, how could that not be my first thought" feeling stupid is an understatement right now.

"I'm only 18 mom, I can't be having a baby. Look at my life, I travel so much out of a year. V has her career, she is still young too I - " I panic out loud before I'm cut off.

"Billie stop, just stop. You're in love with her, I can see the way you both look at each other. Trust me, I am not thrilled at the idea of you becoming a mom this young either, but if this is how god has planned out your life than so be it. You and Violetta will love this child with every ounce of your being honey, everything will be fine" her voice sweet again.

Tears pour down my cheeks at the new emotions I am feeling.

Terrified, reckless, questioning if I am allowed to be happy, worried for my girlfriend who is going through this alone.

If, of course, she is actually pregnant.

"Mom, are you mad at my decisions" my lip quivering at the pending answer.

I know everything she just said, but that was more about keeping me from falling apart.

She let out a large sigh, taking a turn into the airport parking lot.

"As I said, I'm not thrilled. However, I feel like I am to blame too" Her words choked up.

"Why do you say that mom?"

"I don't know Bil, maybe I should have given you the safe sex talk again" she lets out a watery chuckle, making me smile.

"Nah, I don't think that would've helped" I say trying to make her feel better, but also remembering how I never think to wear protection when I am in the moment with Vi.

"If Violetta is pregnant Billie, I will love my grand baby more than you" we both laugh at her response but also knowing how true that actually is makes me so happy.

"I love you momma" I tell her leaning over the centre console to hug her, as we have pulled into a parking space.

"I love you too honey" she rubs my back as I cry on her shoulder allowing myself to feel my emotions.

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Present time:

As I embrace my mom at security I couldn't help but feel the pit of my stomach sink.

Is my life about to change? This is the question now constantly running through my mind. Furthermore; if so, what happens now?

I tell her bye and how much I love her as my security escort me through to my gate.

The flight is already boarding, as I took my time crying in the car before checking in.

I take my seat getting comfortable, I get out my headphones and phone finally seeing a text from Violetta.

It simply reads; I love you baby, have a safe flight x

I start crying again. My mom is right, I am so in love with her, why does anything else matter.

I reply; I love you too, see you soon beautiful 😘

If this is how my life is meant to be then I will embrace it with every fibre of my being.

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A/N:

Okay, so, I am going to do this chapter in two parts as you can tell already.

Part one, Billie's POV. Part two, Violetta's POV. Then there will be one more chapter (22) and atm that will be the last chapter of the book. And yes, there will be a sequel, which I am currently contemplating to have a plot twist or a time jump. I have two ideas swirling right now.

Anyways I can't believe how many reads this has!! 12k wtf! Thank you for reading, voting, commenting blah blah blah ❤️ how are y'all doing? Love you!