Save me [ disconnected]

ALL ALONE

"A broken heart bleeds tears"
-Steve Maraboli
Song of the chapter is:-
Battlefield by SVRCINA
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Naya's POV
so heartbroken disappointed that's what I feel right now , why everyone hurt me ? The only thing I'm good at is getting hurt by people I hate this I hate my life I hate myself, I'm nothing but worthless and weak girl , I got up and went to my bathroom I looked at my reflection dang it my eyes are red and fluffy I remembered Nathan's words I was bored and you seemed like fun I start to cry again then I took whatever in front of me and throw it on the mirror his words kept replying on my head I kept listening to his voice over and over again, I saw all the broken glass on the floor I'm just like this glass nothing can fix me , I took the razor from my sink and I placed slowly on my arm I pushed harder on my arm I felt the pain I saw the blood coming out

this one cut become two then three
after doing it for few minutes now I'm on the floor with my both arm filled with cuts this made feel good about my self for some reason
I was setting on my bed hugging my knees it's 4:00am I couldn't sleep at all every time u try to I have nightmares either Nathan standing in the dark saying horrible things to me or my grandparents hitting kicking or punching me , I can't stand this I feel like shit why me ? Why it's always have to be me , what did I do to deserve this pain ?

Nathan's POV
She been in my mind the whole time I couldn't stop thinking about her , why did I do that? Why did I say that to her? She must hate me now this is good at least she doesn't have to see this monster I need to stop thinking this is the best for her keeping her away from me and my life is saver at least I don't have to see her hurt because of me , I sat on the window I light up my cigarette

i watch the smoke rise up , people see cigarettes are bad for our health but I say people and the world are bad for my health I don't know what happened to me when I met Naya but that person is gone for good .
I was laying awake on my bed 4:00 am I read the clock I need to sleep damnit , I didn't mean to hurt her I wish I can tell her what I'm really feeling, I don't deserve to live monster deserve pain they deserve to be alone and here I am alone thinking about the only person that made me happy....happy wow I never thought I would say this world, see I don't know what it's like to be happy sad in love or even loved , damnit I am a real monster I shut people out people bring nothing but pain and sadness , I just have to live like I never met her which is seems impossible because she always In my head her voice her smile her eyes every little thing about her , I keep seeing her picture every time I close my eyes

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Here's new chapter I know it's short but I wanna see how it turns since I decided to change the theme so
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