i have been wanting to lay down somewhere with you. i have been wanting to be held by you, for you to be my landing place. i wanted you to rest me.
i don't know if i can do this with you any longer if it's going to hurt you, first, do no harm, first, inflict no pain. first, i am sorry. i should not have come to you empty. i should not come to you empty.
i wil eat
i will sleep
i will hydrate
i will say no
i will seek support
i will not go alone.
i will find the courage to say what i need to say
i will come to you unempty.
i am crying at the idea of lying down with you. all i want, all i want... god, i just want some serotonin. i should not come to you needing that. i should not come to you for my chemical balance. if i need that, there are drugs for that, but you are not a medicine. i just want to know what my brain looks like.
i will come to you holding something i took from you. what did i ever want? i will want less.
i wanted you to hold me. one of these mornings i'll come up feeling rested. that day, i will go to you and say i am sorry.
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