You're strange, but I am too

{chapter18}

So um....
This chapter... it's not  smut....
....it's like a bit of breastfeeding..... but like you know...if you don't like it don't read it...yeah peace out enjoy
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During the night I was restless since Aaron's headspace was around infant to five months he woke me up at midnight because he needed a diaper change,
12:00am
"Mmmhm baby what's wrong"
He couldn't even answer he was chocking on his soft cry's
When I saw him grabbing at his diaper
"Ohh this baby you want me to change you huh"
He gave me a small nod then started calming down
"K baby"
I cleaned him up then left him without pants cause I was too tired, then we went back to bed
1:00am
I herd cry's again then woke up
"Baby what's wrong, what has you all fuzzy"
-"baba"
"You hungry"
He nodded
"K baby stay here I'll be back in a flash"
-"otay"
When I got to the kitchen I laughed when I saw Sebastian there warming up a bottle as well
"Hey"
-"hey"
"What's his headspace right now"
-"Ricky is probably around 3-4months, you"
"Same, oh and seb.....thank you, for taking care of my brother"
-"I do because I love him, but yeah don't worry, he has me to protect him"
I gave him a side hug but I knew he understand how grateful I was
Soon I got back to Aaron I fed, and burped him
Then back to bed like at 1:30
2:15am
I woke up to him crying but this time he was asleep
"Awww baby it's a nightmare" I pulled him closer started rubbing his back whispering sweet words
He then woke up
-"Mama nu eave"
"Baby I'd never leave you okay"
"Paci"
" searched around the room it was no where
"Baby i cant find it"
He started crying again
Fuck and I only packed one
Mentally cursing myself I sat on the bed....

The most random thought came to me as I was thinking what to do
I could try I said as I looked at my breast...
I mean.... I'm tired it's normal... right...
Fuck it I laid down
"baby come here"
He slowly scooted towards me
"Paci"
"I don't have paci but let's try this"
Im so happy i wear thin straped night gowns
I moved my left breast with my free hand
"Here baby, just until I find your paci okay"
He was hesitant but then he latched on
"Make sure you don't bite, or suck to hard it could hurt mommy, k"
He dis latched
"Otay mommy"
Then latched back on
With my left hand I held my breast and with my right I held Aaron close
I felt like a horrible person enjoying this it felt good, it felt right, and honestly i was getting  a pleasant feeling it was new but In a way it felt right I'm caring for my baby so it was okay.......so I pushed those thoughts of this being bad and looked at my sleepy Aaron who was gently sucking at my nipple then dozed off
I woke up around eight am because the cool air was hitting at my breast
I turned to see Aaron still lightly sucking I started to pull away but he would snuggle closer
"Aaron baby boy, wake up"
He slowly started to flutter open his eyes
"no wanna"
He then latched on softly and started to doze away
"Baby, no more come on I'm going to teach uncle seb how to make some food"
"NO"
I pulled away and sat up he looked up all mad and pouty
"Hey no don't be mean plus I'm not giving you a choice so you come down with me like a good boy or we can start off the day-"
"You mean!"
"One
Two
Thr
I didn't even finish three when he apologized
"I sowwy I get up"
"That's what I thought mister"
"Let's get that diaper changed"
"Otay mommy"

After that I left him in the playroom with Ricky and went down to help seb with breakfast.

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 heyyyy so yeah just a small little filler I hope you are all doing well. Please make sure you take care and rest well. I would like to say thank you my reads have gone up. I know it isnt soooo much but wowwwww THANK YOU! Thanks luvs and see you later.