Nanny Dearest

Chapter Fifty Seven Reconcile

I peek over the corner seeing Halston sitting watching TV I was in area with all the visitors are the room was an ordinary living room the only thing that's stook out was the cameras. 

"Ma'am are you going to head in?" One of the workers asked scaring the shit out if me.

"Aye don't rush me in contemplating life right now." I whisper causing the man to smile and nod his head leaving me alone. I took a deep breath in before entering the livingroom i made my way behind him looking at what he watching and I can't tell anything because the shit is in Russian. 

"Fuck you watching." I asked and he turned his head around looking at me. He stare at me and I did back before cracking a smile. 

"Why are you here?" He asked me and moved over giving me room to sit on the couch. So I hop over sitting down.

"I honestly don't know but it's probably because I missed you even though you're a dick." I said casually and he squint his eyes before I see a small smile appear and he look away staring at the tv.

"How can I help you Lyanna?" Halston ask me and I shrug my shoulders.

"I don't know how you been, no cap I'm not going to lie I feel awkward as fuck but I'm pushing through. " I crisscross my legs on the couch grabbing his attention.

"Well, Caesar did told me you were doing well said you open a shop..hows that?" He asked about my life and I smile a bit more.

"Yep I it's a beautique it's set up nice to thank to Marya. Feels good to actually go through a projects and finished. I really wanna know how you doing though." I said feeling myself get a little comfortable. 

"Look where I'm at." He shrug his shoulders. "I'm bored and everyone act nice in here its fucking ass I feel like I'm in a censored kid show. I can't even smoke a cigarette. " He complain and I laugh at him.

"Its a rehab facility dipshit." I punch his arm and pluck mine.

"Well I'm decently stable." He pouted and I shook my head looking over before pulling on his shirt.

"You dress like shit too." I comment and he scoff.

"Apparently some colors are triggering for others." He gave me a straight face before I laugh again.

"Oh it sucks here, how was you know...withdrawal." I asked looking at his arm staring a little and I think he notice since he moved it to my lap and I pick it up looking over his tattoos you can see some marks from him injecting heroin. I frown to myself because the shit looked painful.

"Hard, felt sick twenty four seven and hated everything and everybody plus I felt cold as shit but I'm fine now." I heard him spoke but pause so I look up at him to see he was looking at his arm too before making eye contact with me. "I plan on getting some cover ups you have any suggestions?" He asked trying to lighten the mood a little bit and I allowed it.

"I don't know probably a rose in mid bloom I think that would be pretty." I started to play with his fingers while turning my attention to the tv.

"Speaking of pretty come here." He said getting up stretching and I raise an eyebrow getting up while he started to walk and I follow.

"Where we going?" I asked and he smile at me, I felt myself blushing because I barely see a genuine smile from him.

"Showing you something pretty and you better be fucking impress because I have a photographic memory." He said proudly and ii couldn't help but laugh, we enter a room filled with some paintings and I looked around because some art pieces did caught my eye.  I heard him clear his throat and I turned around to see him holding up an art piece of me. I try my hardest not to smile but I gave in.

"Your fucking corny dude." I walk over looking at it, it was a nice portrait of me with a few flowers in my hair and my eyes closed smiling. "Ew dude your fucking corny." I giggle looking over the detail I touched my face peeping he actually put my beauty mark on the correct cheek and all. 

"... I'm sorry " He handed the canvas to me and I gladly took it looking over it before look at him.

"You never apologize befo-"

"Shut up I didn't rethink this shit for nothing." He cut me off and I held in a laugh and nod my head setting the canvas against the wall before looking back at him. " I'm not use to people fucking and shit you cross that and it made me uncomfortable because that's new. You were getting to close so I had to push you away. Um no fucking shit the apology doesn't cover up on how I treat you but your the first person I apologize to so this shit genuine as fuck." He said and I couldn't help but keep smiling like a dumb ass so I bald my first up and hit his chest lightly. 

"Forgiven...bitch you made me fucking cry though don't do it again." I said and he left a sigh out looking relief. Before digging in his pocket taking out the shades he stole from me, handing them over and I accepted.

"Thank you for helping me." He said and shrug my shoulders.

"You welcome Halston." I reached for his hands and he allowed me to hold them. I took a deep breath feeling my anxiety now. "Um question." I bit my lip.

"Hm?"

"What are we?" I asked him feeling my heart in my throat, I hate that question. 

"I don't know, I'm not ready for you yet." I felt him squeeze my hand and as truthful as his words are honesty isn't always good to hear. I felt myself about to tear up but I held it in, this shit isn't a fairytale I should know better. "But I'm not asking you to wait either, live your fuckin life and if you still intrested I would actually take you on a date." He said and I smile cupping his face I felt his arms wrap around my waist.

"Okay, well I have something to tell you. Mind you I'm not telling you so you can change your mind I'm telling you this because you have the right to know." I said and he raise an eyebrow.

"What is it?" He questioned and I bit my lip taking a deep breath.

"Marya and Ruslan had made me see a doctor but already know the results I just kept stalling because I really don't know what to do. I'm pregnant." I said and his eye grew wide.

"Well shit." He said letting out a small laugh and I did too.

"I know right." I back up and he had a dopey smile on his face.

"I'm unfit for that." He said and we shared another laugh. 

"Same here this shit scaring me bruh I don't know how to take care of a child." I said moving walking over to sit on the couch that was in the room. I look at Halston to see him moving a couple of things.

"Oops but look it's a journey." He joked and I threw a pillow at him and he caught it smiling. "In all seriousness though, asked for Caesar to give you this hell hole number and whenever you stress about the baby or just bored call me." He suggested and I smile nodding my head.

"Ew our child not going to listen." I complain and he chuckled pulling up a stool and dragging the wooden stretcher that had a blank canvas. 

"Well they going to get their ass beat if they don't so sucks for them." He said and I couldn't help but share another laugh.

"Ou are you bout to paint?" I asked then doing a corny ass pose laying on the couch. "Paint me like one of your french girls." I did a dramatic pose then look at him to see a blank stare but he smirk.

"Your fucking corny?" He got up walking over towards the door closing and I smile tilting my head since a thought came to mind.

"How long is visitation here?" I asked and he look back at me.

"Here they make it two hours max, they believe spending a few hours with family helps and shit like that why wassup?" He asked putting his hands in his pocket.

"I want a couple of kiss kiss." I admit and he stare at me before we both share a smile.

"Let me lock the door."