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Karma
October 6
5:15 pm
"His next bottle is at 6" I told ma and she sucked her teeth while pushing me towards the door where Benji was waiting on me
"I know Kay"
"And yo-"
"Girl I got my baby" she laughed "GO have fun and enjoy your birthday. Y'all be safe"
"I been tryina get her out the door for the past 30 minutes" Benji told ma while shaking her head
"I just wanted to make sure Hendrix was good before we left"
"Well he's good. Go!"
"Alright" I finally gave in and headed to the door.
"Bout time" Benji mumbled while opening the door and I frowned my face up at him while walking out and he followed behind me, we got in his car and left. As he drove I quietly looked out the window for a few minutes before talking
"You think Hendrix misses me?"
Benji took his eyes off the road to look at me
"Kay-... I gotta getchu out the house more"
"I couldn't help but ask. I miss my baby already"
"Hendrix fine. Yo momma probably gone spoil his ass the whole time so he probably ain even thinkin bout you"
I scoffed making him laugh and he continued to drive. I pulled down the mirror and looked at myself. Today was the first time since I had Hendrix that I actually got dressed up
"You sure I look okay?"
"Nah" Benji shook his head then looked over at me, licking his lips "I told you, you look good. Why you keep asking?"
"Cause I feel like ion look right and ion want nobody saying nothing about how I look"
"I wish somebody would.. ain shit wrong witchu and ima keep tellin you that" he assured me while he touched my hair before grasping onto my thigh "yo hair grew"
"I knowww. I was thinking about getting some braids though. It's easier to maintain at this point"
"Who you gone get to do em?"
"Most likely MJ. I like the last ones she did for me plus she don't braid too tight"
"I was bout to say. Don't let her pull yo hair out cause them ims have to beat Mary ass"
"No" I laughed "you liked the other ones I had, ain it?"
"Yeah. But I like you witcho edges too. I ain even knew she did the other ones"
"Yeah"
"Well don't let nobody else touch yo shit. These hoes be lettin anybody touch they head then cry cause they ain got no edges or gettin bald spots"
"Well I ain them hoes... I'm so glad I'm 21 now. Now I can get me a drink LEGALLY"
"Look at you. Turn 21 and don't know how to act already"
"Forreal" I told Benji while I grabbed my phone and went to the Snapchat camera. I didn't use Snapchat, I only had it cause I liked the camera and filters. A message came to my phone from an unknown number so I clicked and recognized it was my dad's number but I didn't have it saved anymore
Unknown number
I know I haven't been supportive of you and your decisions lately but I shouldn't have done what I did over the past few months. No one is perfect and I have made terrible decisions myself so to judge yours, insensitively at that, was wrong of me and I am truly beyond sorry. I love you forever babygirl and I hope that one day you can forgive me. Happy Birthday Karma
