Love After Football: Book 2

23. Thinking Bout Life

Cj
I've been thinking lately. With everything going on i need to figure some stuff out. Did i wanna live life like this? Is this the life i want? The only thing i was sure about was football. Everything else was just there. But i needed to get myself together and figure out what i want. So i decided to cut Taco completely off. It was hard but i can't be with him. He's older and a man. How would that look? It's not right so I'm going to continue my relationship with Alison and play football. I have a great image right now and i don't wanna mess that up. Imma get our relationship back on track but right now we have our first game in 2 days. 2 DAYS! And I'm nervous af. It's a lot of pressure on me this year and i just wanna make everyone proud.

Camille
I'm still in the hospital yay. It's really boring tho but i can't leave till Friday. 2 more days man. But my family has been keeping me company and D'Red. I don't know how i should feel about him. I mean i like him, but i don't know anything about him. He's so secretive and i just want him to open up to me. I'm going to ask him today when he comes. But enough of that my brothers play Friday and I'm glad i get out in time to watch them. I miss seeing them play together. I know they're going to be good. I wish i could dance tho. But don't worry I'll be back next week and be better than ever. I can't wait. Friday me pllleeeaaassseeeee.

Zion
What am i doing. I got too much shit going on and no one to talk about it to. I got 2 kids, a bi polar relationship with my baby momma, finna start back playin, and still in the streets. Like damn. When all this happened? Did i miss the story? Cause why i had so much shit happen in a matter of 2 weeks. I just got to balance this out. I normally talk to moms bout it but hell she can't know bout all this shit. She'll kill me. But shit i can't keep hiding it. Should i tell her? Am i ready to die? I need to talk to someone.

Odell
I don't got shit to say. My life too crazy right now

Cam
I can't get him out of my mind. Every moment and every second i think of him. I can't help it. I need him. I fucked up. But imma keep tryin no matter what. But i got a family. What do i tell them. And my wife. We been married for 19 years. What do i tell her. This is too much. Let me just focus on Friday and I'll worry bout the rest this weekend. I wonder what Odell doin?

Odell
Ok so i decided to take off and get my shit together. Taking time to think about my life and my kids. I also decided to invite Africa over to talk this shit out. I needed to talk to someone.

Africa- O I'm so so sorry. It was my idea to take u there and get u drunk. And i knew if u got drunk u would have sex. I just wanted to help u feel better. I thought it was a good idea. Just please forgive me. I miss u and I'm going crazy knowing u hate me

I don't hate u. I forgive u. It's my fault too. Let's just put it behind us. We good

Africa- great.............so was it good

.....most def.

Africa- i knew it. Let be find out u coming back on this side

No no no that's not what i said. I can't lie and say it wasn't good. I needed it. But u know where my heart is

Africa- yeah with Cam

I didn't say that

Africa- u don't have to. Odell I've known u for almost 25 years. I know he still has ur heart and Ik u been seeing him

Only for business

Africa- business my ass. U could've sent ur assistant but u went instead cause u wanted to see him