Only With You || Soukoku

|| Suicidal Maniac ||

It is a lovely day... The trees are swaying, birds are chirping and kids are playing

My name is Dazai... Dazai Osamu; a kid that once lived a happy life.

I used to play in the mud, and talk to my friends...

I am the only child in my family, and we are wealthy. Yes, I once lived in a nice house with good food, a comfortable bed, and lived in a very fancy place.

One day, my parents went out to buy our needs at the grocery store. But I thought that they were going back... Not knowing that it would the last time I will see them.

Life was perfect, but all those happiness has come to an end. Since the day my parents died, I started to be lonely and raised myself alone. It was quite a responsibility, but I got used to it.

~4 years later~

The bell for lunch rang, and I was sitting alone. I deeply sighed and continued eating my lunch on the rooftop

I stopped as I heard footsteps coming towards my location

A man around the same age as me showed up

"Nice view, isn't it?" Said a voice

"Are you talking to me?" I naively asked

The guy chuckled

"Who else would it be if you are the only one here?" He laughed

I slightly smiled and continued eating

"Are you here constantly?" He asked, and sat beside me

"Yeah," I sighed, "I have no one to talk to anyways... Cause I'm used to it"

"Well, who are you talking to now?"

I looked at him and smiled

Atsushi lightly giggled

"I'm Nakajima Atsushi, nice to meet you! And you're..?"

"Osamu Dazai, nice to meet you too," I said with a smile

"Don't you have any friends, Dazai?"

I clenched one of my fists

"Well, I used to... But he's not around anymore" I said while looking down

"Oh, but are you still in touch?" He asked

"Not anymore" I sighed, trying to hide my feelings

"Well since we're the only ones here, I wanted to ask if you could be my... F-friend?" He managed to let out, closing his eyes shut.

I stopped for a moment, and couldn't believe my ears... Him...? As my friend?

"Well, o-only if you want to!" He said in a flash, blushing with

embarrassment, waiting for my reply

"Why not?" I said, smiling triumphantly

It's been years since I last had a friend, I was so happy that I get to have a new friend who can talk to, and share secrets with.

The next day, as I was waiting for the next bell to ring, I have been thinking to meet up with Atsushi at the same place

"It's finally lunchtime!" I groaned

"Oi, we're not done yet!" Barked Kunikida

The whole class groaned in annoyance

"But it's lunchtime! And the bell already rang!" One of my classmates protested

"Well, before you go, you have to solve this Math problem first before you all can leave!" He shouted

-A few minutes later-

I went up to the rooftop and saw that Atsushi has arrived earlier than me

"Sorry to keep you waiting, Kunikida-san always extends his boring Math-ass classes" I huffed

"Nah, it's fine, he does that all the time" He laughed

It took a few minutes until one of us finally spoke again

"Well Dazai, I've been wanting to ask you something"

I looked up to him curiously and asked in reply, "What is it?"

"Why do you have so many bandages? Were you always hurt?"

It took a while for me to respond

"Should I tell him..?" I asked myself

"Well, it's okay if you don't want to... I mean, I'm just curious anyways,"

But I snapped and decided to tell him the truth

"It's just... I had some suicide attempts and somehow didn't manage to heal some wounds, so I hid them with these" I said while scanning into one on my arms

"You- What?!" He exclaimed, choking on his food

I looked down, slowly regretting what I just told him

"So you were the ones hurting yourself after all?! What were you thinking!" He exclaimed, looking worried

"Nah, it's nothing actually" I laughed nervously

"What a suicidal maniac" He mumbled

"Hahaha, there's nothing to worry about!" I assured him, scratching the back of my head

"I'll be calling you that from now on," He said in a chuckle

I said nothing but smiled, and continued eating my meal

"Suicidal Maniac" What a name from a friend whom I just met a day ago... But it's okay for me. After all, he's my "friend" now...

"So what are your plans in the future?" Asked the boy beside me, breaking the silence

"Well I've always wanted to commit a double suicide with a partner in life," I said while looking up the sky

"A.. Double suicide?" Atsushi repeated

"Yep!" I said proudly

"Why a double suicide? I was hoping you'd say something more interesting like looking for a job or something"

"Well it's been a dream for me not to die alone, I wanted to die with someone who truly loves me"

"Like my parents..." I whispered to myself softly

"But I hope you'd stop hurting yourself though," He said, looking sincere to his words

I stared at him, and this made him silent.

The bell from the campus finally rang

"Well, that's the bell! Lunchtime is up!" He announced cheerfully

Atsushi stood up and took a very deep breath. He stretched his arms and arched his back

"I'll see you tomorrow then!"

As soon as Atsushi went in a mere distance, I huffed and went straight to my next class

"See you tomorrow," I whispered

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Note:
For now, you might think that this is DazAtsu, but it's not. You guys will find out in the future chapters :)

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