My stepbrother obsession

chapter 16

Zach POV:

" Shit!!! Aira!!!"

"Ahhhh " huminga ako ng malalim at tiningnan ang bedsheets na sobrang basa. Iniisip ko si Aira habang tinaas baba ang ari ko. Hindi ko maiwasang pagnasaan ang kapatid ko, we are not blood related nor siblings but she thought and treat me as one. 

Alam kong mali pero di ko mapigilan ang sarili kong tingnan ang katawan niya habang umiinom ng tubig. She looks so hot without trying to be one. She makes me feel different kind of emotion that even me don't know I could show. 

I got jealous everytime boys would make a move on her, touching and talking to her. I got frustrated and angry whenever I saw her smiling in every damn boys.

One last night when I tried to visit her. She's asleep, I know. I'm planning to just stare at her but I'm succumb to her body. Namalayan ko na lang ang sarili kong hinahalikan ang mga labi niya, I suck and lick her nipples and neck, I even give her a lot of kissmark hangga't sa gabi-gabi ko na lang palaging ginagawa ito sa kaniya, it's like my routine.

When tita saw those my kissmark, gulat at may pagtataka na tinanong niya si Aira kung may boyfriend ba siya. Napahigpit ang paghawak ko sa kutsara, I don't know but I don't like it, the idea of having her a boyfriend, baka mapatay ko lang ito. 

She's innocent. Nang makita niya ang pictures niya sa loob ng kwarto ko, I thought she would panick but instead she's asking if she could get one. I fired nanay Merlita, I'm scared she would tell my secret, ayokong mawala si Aira sa akin. Kaya gagawin ko ang lahat manatili lang siya sa tabi ko. 

It's good thing that dad and tita always spend a lotof time in work, I'm free to show to her how much she meant to me. We always spend together in my room, I kiss and took care of her everytime I got a chance. Pinagbantaan ko ang lahat ng kasambahay kapag may magtangkang magsombong kay daddy. 

I know it's wrong but it's my first time to feel like this. Hindi ko ito nararamdaman sa mga babaeng nakasama ko. I tried to date a girl but there is nothing, alam kong nakita kami ni Aira, sinadya ko talaga iyon hoping to get a reaction pero wala. 

Kaya noong sinuway niya ako, i immediately kiss her. Maraming lalaki sa bar na tiningnan siya, she's like a prey to them, at nang nakita ko siyang may kasayaw, same boy who wants to have lunch with her, doon ko siya kinakaladkad. Hindi ko mapigilang halikan siya ng marahas, galit ako. Kung pwede lang sana ikulong ko siya sa bahay gagawin ko. 

Mas naging malapit kami sa isa't isa dahil sa gabing iyon. I almost told her my feeling, but I don't want her to feel pressure. I scared her I know that's why all my demands, she would definitely obey and do what I ask to. 

Pero hindi sa araw na iyon. Sa sobrang galit na nararamdaman ko nang makita siyang kasama ulit ang lalaking iyon. He even introduce her to his parents, I feel like it's a threat. I wanted to punch him and throw him outside the restaurant but I can't. They will probably think I'm some kind of crazy. Pero nasasaktan ako dahil nakikita kong masaya siya. 

An idea comes in my mind. If I mark her, no one will get her. She's mine... only mine. Iyan ang iniisip ko habang inaangkin siya. Paulit-ulit kong isiinisigaw iyon sa isip. Nagmakaawa at umiiyak siya pero parang wala akong marinig. Ang na'sa isip ko ay ang maging akin siya. 

Guilt is what I felt nang matauhan ako. I thought it was just a dream, pero nakita ko ang mansiya ng dugo sa bedsheets ko. Hindi ako kumain sa kakaisip kong nasan siya. I would kill myself if I can't find her. Akala ko tuluyan na siyang umalis pero na'sa kwarto pa ang gamit niya kaya nabuhayan ako ng loob. Dinaan ko sa alak ang nararamdaman ko. I'm happy to have her but the same time I blamed myself to do something she didn't want. 

Kaya ng bumalik siya, pinangako ko sa sarili kong iiwasan ko siya. I'll keep my feelings, I won't tell her. I won't hurt her again in any way. I do bring a lot of woman inside my room. Hanggang make out lang ang kaya ko because I can't do it. Parang nawalan ako ng gana. I can't do it with different woman. 

Nang makita niya kami, nagulat ako dahil umiiyak siya. Nakita kong nasasaktan siya. Pero mas nasasaktan ako. Dahil hindi ko man lang maiparamdam sa kaniya ang nararamdaman ko. Natakot akong tuluyan niya na akong iwan, isipin ko nga lang ay hindi ko na kaya e. 

I wanted to kiss and hug her again. To be able to cuddle and be with her every time. I couldn't do it. I might hurt her again. She might run away again. Okay lang sa akin na ganito, at least makikita at makausap ko man lang siya, its enough for me. 

I'm hoping... that I met you in right time and right place. My love for her is forbidden to them but there is always a way... A way to feel alive again.

( Sa mga nag-aabang ng side ni Zach ito na po iyon. Sorry if I can't meet your standard guys or you expect more, hope you like it and enjoy reading )

@merkylicious