Painfully Aware with So Much to Learn

Chapter Twenty-two: The Confession

A/N: above is an authentic picture of me every time someone makes a nice comment, u all are the best

A blonde wearing the same clothes as the day before bowed his head over and over, frantically apologizing to the mother of the teenage boy he slept with -er- slept in the same room with. Yoshino was just waving her hands, saying it was fine and Naruto was welcome any time.

Unbenounced to said teen, though, was that a certain brunette was watching the interaction with a scowl.

'Why did he sleep at the Nara bastard's house? I'll kill him! I need to do something before my chances are completely gone!' He thought as he jumped away at ninja speeds.

Once Naruto had reached the place he was suppost to be staying, he cracked open the door to see his jonin sensei cooking breakfast. The silver haired man turned to his student with an eye smile.

"Welcome home Naruto, you're lucky Shikaku called or Iruka-san would have turned Konoha upside-down looking for you." He said casually, Naruto paled a bit at that thought.

Naruto suddenly snapped out of it when he noticed Yamato-taicho with his arm slung around Iruka-sensei. Gai burst in the room, talking about the youthful morning and Naruto sniggered.

"So all my dad's live here, ne?" He said casually, making Yamato and Kakashi choke on air while Iruka sighed.

Gai seemed to be vibrating before scooping everyone else in a hug before they could blink. "YES! A YOUTHFUL FAMILY OF YOUTHFUL FATHERS!" He yelled before anime crying. Everyone else sweat dropped but Naruto was just happy he got a hug. Iruka kissed his passionate boyfriend's forehead before said boyfriend released his other boyfriends and new illegitimate son.

After the odd interaction, Naruto decided to take a shower and change into casual clothes. Iruka had explained to him while he was unpacking that he would get the next few days off-duty to settle in, so he didn't really need his mission attire.

Once he was out of the shower, he heard a knock on the door. He quickly tied a towel around his waist and went to answer the door, he was a little confused as to where the other men of the house went but the door was more pressing. Once he opened the door he was met with a familiar face.

"Kiba! It's nice to see you, we didn't really get to properly talk at the gate." He said, he saw a small trickle of blood flow out of the Inuzuka's nose as he stared at the uncovered wet skin.

Akamaru chomped on his leg to snap him out of his daze. "Y-Yeah, well d-do you wanna hang out?" He stuttered, still intimidated and aroused by the sight in front of him.

"Sure! Lemme just get changed and we can head out!" He said cheerfully, closing the door and going to get changed.

He came back to the door about five minuites later, wearing something that shocked the dog lover.

A casual red dress with white trim and black shorts going down to his knees. (A/N: think Sakura's dress from when she was 12)

The red was gentle and brought out his vibrant blonde hair, he hid the seals on his arms with chakra and all that was left was an adorable fem-boy with a smile that could rival the sun with how warm and bright it was. Kiba was sure now, he needed this boy.

Kiba silently led Naruto to a park, sitting down next to him on an old bench.

"H-Hey, Naruto? There's something I've been meaning to ask you..." the blonde cutely tilted his head in confusion.

Kiba stood up, closed his eyes and turned to the blonde. "Will you go out with me?!?!" He yelled, praying the other boy said yes.

Naruto paled.

It was happening again,

People he didn't love asking for him,

His friends leaving him because he didn't love them as more than friends.

Sasuke left, Kiba might as well too.

Naruto can't even have the decency to accept the love right in front of him.

Naruto's mouth went dry, tears ran down his cheeks.

Sasuke left him,

Kiba would leave him,

And if he ever told Shikamaru how much he loved him, Shikamaru would leave him too.

All Naruto wanted were bonds he wasn't born with.

Kiba finally opened his eyes to see Naruto. He looked petrified and tears ran freely down his cheeks. "N-Naru-" He was cut off when the blonde dropped to the pavement on his knees.

"I-I'm so sorry, please don't leave. You're like a brother to me, please, I just can't-" the blonde begged, waiting for the beating he was sure would insue. Kiba felt a tear fall down his own cheek at the rejection, before he thought to say anything he ran as fast as he could on Akamaru's back.

Naruto was alone again.

Naruto hated how tiny rocks embedded themselves into his arms but he knew not to look up. If he looked up that would confirm that Kiba had left him, just like Sasuke did. Naruto didn't know why he was crying, he hadn't even cried when he learned he failed that fateful mission.

'Why can't I just have friends?' He thought to himself as he fell silent against the pavement. He sat there, head in the dirt and his face blank, he thought about Shikamaru.

Shikamaru who couldn't stand Naruto for years.

Shikamaru who was smart enough to see all the awful things that Naruto was.

Shikamaru who was nice enough to pity Naruto.

Shikamaru who could never love the blonde like the blonde loved him.

At least that's what Naruto thought.
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Heya! Sorry this chapter is kinda bad but I wanted to do something with one of Naruto's other crushes. Also I'm not super creative with outfits and junk, but I think Naruto would look adorable in Sakura's dress so here we are. The last bit is kinda iffy but sometimes you need hurt for the comfort.
                                                   ~Gracie