Memory in a Bottle

Jace

I can't help not staring at her. She's smiling, laughing, and being herself. I finished eating while she was working on her first half of her bagel. My gaze kept going to her lips every time she takes a bite of her bagel. She looks at me and smiles. She reached over and wiped her thumb across the corner of my mouth. I inhale her scent and freeze. Her gaze catches mine and it stays like that.

"You... you had something..." She trails off as she looks down at my lips. Then almost immediately her gaze goes back to my eyes. The intensity in the room is unbearable. We both want to make a move but is too scared to do something wrong. She puts her hand on my cheek and I lean into her touch. She leans forward and Kisses me. Shocked I stiffen. Before I could do anything, it was over. She rests her head on mine and I lean in and kissed her. My hands work their way up to her hair. I nip her bottom lip asking to go further. She gasps in surprise and deepens the kiss. She crawls forward and we stumble. I'm on my back while she's on top of me. Then out of nowhere something clicked in my head. I stop and pulled away.

"Are... Is this okay? We don't need to do it. We can just- Yeah we can just do whatever you want." She nods.

"Yeah, Yes this... it's okay. I feel safe with you and I know that you know when to stop. But yeah, kissing is fine... well more than fine but- I should just stop talking." She says blushing. I caress her warm cheek and smile. I look at her lips then to her eyes. My breath catches as I see the desire in her eyes. I close mine and breathed, once I opened them up, I knew the decision I had to make. This is wrong. Not for me but for her. She just suffered through something that is hard to recover from and here i am kissing her and wanting more from just kissing. She must think I am a terrible boyfriend. She needs space and I'm not doing that. I pick her up and set her down next to me. She looks at me confused.

"I'm sorry. I just.... I know you went through something and here I am not giving you the space you need to move on from the pain and heartbreak that happened. I love you, I really do, but I think I should give you the space that you need to get through this. I'm sorry for being a terrible boyfriend and not thinking about your space. Please forgive me." I plead. She doesn't say anything, she just stares at me. A minute goes by and she still doesn't say anything. "Delilah?" Then out of nowhere she bursts out laughing and my face heats up.

"You really think I'm mad at you?" She giggles. "Love, I'm not mad at you. I kissed you, remember. I'm fine kissing you. I just need time before we have sex again. You are giving me the space I need you haven't kissed me and so when I kissed you that was me telling you that I'm okay with kissing. Hell I'm more than okay with it but as we started to go further you stopped and that's you giving me my space. I just need you here, touching me, hugging me, hell even kissing me, I just need you. So, no I'm not mad at you and you are fine. I love you forever and always." She explains. I was stunned, I didn't know what to say. I guess my face reflected what I felt because she gave me a big smile. I felt the corner of my lips tug up in response.

"Delilah, you never cease to amaze me." Her smile grew bigger and her face turned beet red.