Lost: Dramione Story

Chapter 23: Never Again

The wind whipped past my ace, my hair was blowing with it clouding my vision of the mountains beyond and the black lake beneath. I thought of my Mum and Dad, I lost them because of the choices I made. Ron, I lost him because I wasn't strong enough. Remus, Sirius, Tonks, Fred, Dumbeldore, Dobby, we lost them all and there was something I could have done. Something I could have done to change it, to save them. My mind was lost, broken, pieces missing. I held tight to the banister with one hand and held my wand in the other. A small light floated from the top of my wand up into the sky. "how long is forever, Alice asked the Hatter, sometimes just one second". I let go. A face flashed across my mind, a crooked cheeky smile, blonde hair, apples, ice cream and kisses on frosty mornings. A yell, a scream, a hand caught mine. I looked up. Harry's bright green eyes were full of tears as he huffed pulling me over the banister.

"this is ridiculous" Ginny yelled.

"keep your voice down, Ms. Weasley" McGonagall tutted. Their voices were dull, outside, in a different room.

"she tried to kill herself and you want us to keep lying" Ginny exclaimed "we need to tell her"

"I agree" Harry, they were all here. I sat up, my room in that unusual part of the castle I don't remember living in.

"it is for her safety"

"well her safety wasn't exactly at the forefront when she threw herself off the Astronomy Tower" Harry yelled. I opened the door. The trio looked at me. Harry was pale, upset, angry.

"tell me what?" I said. They all looked at each other. "tell me what!"

"Hermione" McGonagall began.

"why can't I remember things? Why doesn't my mind work like it should?"

"I'll do it" Harry said to McGonagall. Ginny kissed him on the cheek. They left. He looked at me, those green eyes watering. "I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry". He stood and hugged me, cradling me tight. "you're the closest thing I've ever had to family, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I wasn't there"

"what's wrong with me Harry?" I whimpered.

"I'm going to explain everything".

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Hours later, after the rain had begun and stopped. The story was told. Malfoy. "but, why don't I remember?" my head hurt.

"he took the memories from you, so you'd be safe" Harry hadn't stopped apologising.

"where is he?"

"we don't know"

"what do you mean by you don't know?" I exclaimed "it's your job to know"

"he was in protective custody, but he disappeared yesterday evening, without a trace". I clutched my head, I hurt so much.

"give them back"

"excuse me?"

"give me my memories back, I can't think, I can't think without them"

"Hermione, you know he's the only one who can do that"

"I'm going to find him"

"it's too" Harry began before I jumped down his throat.

"Harry James Potter, if you are about to tell me it's too dangerous to go out there, I will charm you into the next century", he backed away immediately, fear flittered across his eyes. He knew better than to disagree. "I need to know; I need to know what's true". He nodded going to the door.

"thank you" he said quietly.

"for what?"

"you sent out a Patronus Charm" he muttered "thank you for letting me find you"

"why were you even here?" I asked.

"I had a feeling" he turned "that my sister was in trouble". I walked to him and held him tight. "never again Hermione, never again"