𝙣𝙚𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙗𝙤𝙧 ⤧ 𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘳

⥪𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲-𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞⥬

𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐯

"FUCK Y/N, y/n, wake up" i shake her trying to get her to wake up.

i found her lying on the cold ground looking lifeless. bongs and blunts were laying around.

she opens her reddened eyes slowly furrowing her eyebrows as she sits up.

"thank god, are you okay?" i sigh rubbing her back

"the fuck are you doing here?" she steps away from my touch standing up

"i came here to check-" i start but she cuts me off

"no i dont need you to fucking check on me, you dont get to care about me anymore," she scoffs, "as if you ever did"

"i did care-"

"bullshit, every fucking thing that comes out of your mouth is fucking bullshit" she points her index finger into my chest tears forming in her eyes

"y/n, please just let me-"

she shakes her head and walks away grabbing a bottle of beer from the table chugging it

"hey-"

"y/n!" josh unexpectedly comes up and runs towards her hugging her but she never hugged back

josh places both of his hands on her face examining her face carefully, "what happened to you? you disappeared for 3 whole months! we were worried"

y/n pushes his hands away from her face taking another sip from the bottle, "i dont need you guys worrying about me anymore, i can manage myself just fine"

she starts walking towards the stairs stumbling a bit. i look at josh and he shakes his head walking towards her

"what the fuck?" she says when she spots the boys in the living room

"y/n" kio comes up to her but she steps away

"can everyone please get out" she says rubbing her temples and walking towards the kitchen

"y/n we're not leaving, you don't look okay, why did you do it again?" aaron walks after her

again?

"i wanted to," she shrugged, "i mean its the only thing that can make me happy right now" she picks up a blunt from the counter and puts it between her lips

"there's other things that can help you go through what you're going through right now, just tell me what happened, we'll do anything, we'll help you" aaron takes the lighter from her hand

"okay" she drops the blunt and leans forward on the counter

"okay?" aaron holds her shoulder

"so tell me, can you bring my brother back to life? cause he seems like the only person that truly cares for me, not you, not any of you" she points to all of us

her brother?

"wha-" josh gets cut off as she turns to him

"can you bring me back in time when i never knew any of you, back when i never met him?" she points to me still looking at aaron

she wishes she never met me?

maybe she doesn't mean it?

"you don't mean that-" i manage to say but my voice sounding almost as a whisper

"yes i do, i do fucking mean it, all you brought to my life was fucking misery im fucking done, im done with this horrible life"

just when i was about to speak up the door slams open. y/n's face drops and a flash of regret comes across her face.

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞

i haven't updated in a while but i am pushing to update more because your guys' comments give me motivation to continue this book. ily all