I'm Fine

Doesn't Mean I'm Free

Izuku's POV

Saturday, 07.47

"Midoriya. There's someone looking for you," Iida said.

"Oh? Who is that? It's strange... why would someone looking for me... at this hour...," I said, as I stepped my feet towards the door.

I opened the door slowly, And immediately startled.

"Hey, Izu."

"D-dad... why are you here...?"

"Why? Of course to pick you up. It's weekend, you see?" he answered.

"B-but... I'm in the dorm... I thought parents couldn't meet their kids...."

"Well, I made an agreement with UA so that you can go with me if there's no school."

"What...?"

"Shut your mouth already and hurry!" he shouted, turned back and walked towards his car.

I followed obediently. What else could I do?

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"We don't have much time, so just go to the training room quickly."

"D-dad... can't we take a break...? It's weekend...," I asked hesitantly. The answer was clear. And I shouldn't have asked that.

"What?"

I didn't say anything.

"You've got some nerves, huh? It's been five days since you went to the dorms and hey, look at how much nerves you've got." Dad stopped, and now looking at me.

"Hey, Izu. Why do you think you can get some break?"

Silent.

"Hm? No answer, huh?"

I remained silent, which made him pissed. He grabbed my hair, and dragged me to the basement. Basement, not the training room.

Right? I shouldn't have asked that. Why are you so stupid Izuku? Why didn't you just simply obey him? If you obey him nicely, you didn't have to go through this! Besides, you already know the reason. You're weak, that's why you have to train!

"Ooh, I see. You miss my special treatment, don't you? Well then, before training, we could play a little." Dad smirked, as I whined, trying to escape.

"Hey, why? Don't you miss playing with me? What are we gonna play this morning? Do you have any suggestion, Izu?"

"No! Let me go, dad!"

"Eh? You asked it, right?" He tilted his head.

"No dad... I'm sorry... I will obey what you say, let's just train...."

"We will train, later. Let's play before that. Maybe, we could play with water? Hey, it's gonna be fun!"

My eyes immediately widened. I struggled as hard as I could, and when I made it, I ran quickly to the door.

Still.

Ukh! I was completely forget about the bracelet. What now? There's nothing else I could do. Play with water, dad said. That's the worst! I've only had it twice, and I don't want any other experiences.

"What's wrong, Izuku? We're gonna play with water. That's your favorite, right? Come here," dad said.

I hate it. I couldn't fight but obeyed. My feet stepped without my permission.

I hate it. I lost with a bracelet. Seriously? Just how weak am I?

"There, good boy...."

I was terrified, my body was shaking. But I could do nothing. I could only surrender, dad took control of me.

Dad pushed me to the water room. A small room where I can barely fit in. He then closed the door, making it pitch dark.

Slowly but surely, water filled the room. Dad stopped the flow when it reached my chin. That made me have to stand up straight, even on tiptoes, or else I'll drown.

What the unique thing is that, dad could change the temperature. He could set it to be so cold that I'm freezing, or very hot that I'll feel like burned. It's hurt, indeed. But the tool is cool. At least he didn't set the temperature to the point I could get burns.

In this situation, I can't do anything. I hate this so much. More than the syringe. I couldn't scream, I couldn't let my guard down, I couldn't control my emotions.

It didn't need a long time, for me to gasped. No use, the water choked me instead. Panic attack. That was even scarier where you're in a place like this. It was dark, also narrow, with water that changed its temperature without any warning. My head hurt, dizzy. I couldn't breath, and the water choked me. It was terrifying.

What's more? My wounds. My unhealed wounds, cuts, or else. They exposed to water. Hot, then cold, then suddenly, the temperature went up. What a torture.

I was afraid I would go crazy, I was afraid I would die. I mean, I do want to die, but I don't want to die in my dad's hands! I don't want to die like this!

-

Two hours, and the water just receded. Dad opened the door, and pulled me out. I immediately fell to my knees, coughing desperately.

Woah, I'm still alive.

"Learned your mistake already?" he asked.

I nodded weakly. My skin hurt so bad, I also felt tingling sensations all over my body. It also felt strange. It was cold and hot at the same time. I was shivering, yet my sweats poured down.

Dad then gave me a glass of water. I drank it, and he gave me new clothes, for me to change into. See? Dad wasn't that bad. Sometimes he was just... too ambitious and being eaten by his own emotions. At least he didn't want to kill me. But why...? Just end me already.

What are you Izuku? Very unstable, labile. Before, you said that you don't want to die on his hands, and now you want him to end you. Haha, I don't know anymore. And I don't care.

"Let's go. You need to head back to UA tomorrow, so hurry up or we can't finish the training."

I just nodded. From years of my experience with him, I understand that dad didn't need an answer. And, no rest. Of course.

I only need to wait... and survive... I'm sure all of this will end... maybe.

---

"Woah! Those are dark circles you got there Midoriya! Are you okay?!" Iida asked hysterically.

"I'm fine Iida-kun...."

"What were you doing? You disappeared over the weekend...," Uraraka said.

"Nothing. Just some... private business," I answered.

"Are you really okay? You look pale you know?" Todoroki asked.

"Pale, eh? Huh, that must be because I barely get sleep... that's okay though, it's not new anyway... I'll be just fine! Don't worry!" I smiled.

"You didn't sleep?!" he answered with another question.

"I did...."

"Are you really okay?! Just take some rest Midoriya!" the bi-colored haired boy shouted.

"I'm okay... Please don't worry...."

"Do you not want to ask a permission not to attend school? Only for today?" Iida asked.

"No need! I'm fine! Besides, we're already in the class."

"...Fine. Just call us if you need something, understand?"

"...Okay."

It's okay guys, I'm fine. At least, I hope so.