Secrets

Chapter 4

The knock on my door woke me up from my nap. I opened my eyes immediately.

"Yeah?" I asked in sleepy voice.

"Pizza's here, come eat." It was Calum.

"I'm not hungry right now, I'll eat later."

The only thing I wanted to do was sleep.

"Come on, we'd like you to join us."

"Sorry, I'm tired, maybe later."

He sighed and I was left alone. I closed my eyes again and tried to go back to sleep.

But then I heard a knock on my door again. I sighed.

"Yeah?"
"Come eat." Luke strict voice came from outside the room.

Fucking great.

"Luke, later."

I just wanted to sleep.

"I don't care that you're tired now or not hungry. You have to eat and I don't take a 'no' for an answer. After what happened recently I don't really trust you with it.

He wasn't going to let go. He was worrying too much and I needed him to trust me.

I got up and went outside. Luke was looking at me with angry, but also concerned face.

"Can you finally stop worrying at me?" I asked.

"I can't. I see after this time we've spent together, that you're different."

I rolled my eyes.

"The last time we lived together was when you were eighteen and I was ten. What do you expect? Of course, I'm different. I grew up." I laughed lightly.

It was his time to rolled eyes.

"What I mean is you don't talk to me-"
"I do."
"-you don't talk to me about your feelings, concerns or at all about you. You barely leave your room and you seem like you're not happy here. What's going on?"

I'd like to facepalm in front of him but it would be rude so I didn't. He really wanted to talk about it in a hallway? I closed my eyes for a second and tried to collect my thoughts.

"I'm happy, I really am. I'm just not used to talking about me, you know. I can try, if you want. We can also start to spend more time together if you want too."

"It's not about what I want, it's about what you're comfortable with."

"Okay. We'll see, kay?" I smiled at him.

He lead me to living room and all boys looked at us. I could say they heard our conversation from their look. Concerned look.

I smiled at them to show I'm okay.

I really didn't want Luke to feel bad so I took one slice of vegetarian pizza.

The boys were talking with each other and I didn't feel the need to say anything. I liked to listen.

"What would you say about a trip next weekend?" Calum asked. Everyone agreed.

Later we played 'Just Dance' and of course I was winning.

"Ha, you loser" I laughed at Luke when I won for the third time.

"Fuck you."

"Ah, you're so mature" I teased.

Soon we switched places with Michael and Calum and sat with Ashton on a couch.

I was really having a good time with them.