This is a Hamilton College au (I know I'm so creative) Alexander Hamilton has been abandoned his whole life and wishes to hide his pain with scars. John Laurens tried to hide his past and his thoughts through drawing and drinking. Eliza tries to make herself perfect through unhealthy habits. Angelica, Peggy, Hercules, and Lafayette don't know, and more importantly, Alex, John, and Eliza don't want them to find out. No one knows what it's like. They all keep it inside (It actually has a happy ending it just starts really badly cause character development) (This story switches between the point of view of Alexander, Eliza, and John.) (TW: Depression, self harm, suicide, eating disorders, etc.)