How To Get A Divorce From A Billionaire ?

Episode 37

How do people realise they actually love someone?

I realised what I have for my husband was real love, the kind I will take to my grave and that will make me look at his wrinkled 80 years old face and still want to kiss everything about it, when we had another setback in our married life.

Seeing a doctor is not particularly the best thing i like in life, quite the opposite actually.

Not even Eliyas's presence helped in my consultation with the gynecologist, that experience was much harder than i thought it would be, i needed to do many tests including the blood draws i was terrified of, but that's not even the tough part about it at all, it was in reality the fact that i had to go through all this only to be told when the results were out that my chances of having a child were miraculous.

When the doctor said this to us while reading through the results in his hands our reactions were different like sky and earth, they say that sometimes accepting hard news is easier for the patient himself more than his family and i guess it's true: i accepted and Eliyas couldn't. In fact a part of me knew that we will get such results and somehow i gained enormous strength at that moment and found my self whispering:

_" Allah has decreed it, and what he wills, he does."

I asked the doctor about all the possible solutions I have and i accepted the lack of them, Eliyas on the other hand was silent like a grave, which is something very unusual of him, he usually puts his emotions to the side and takes the best conduct in every situation we face, While I asked the doctor and tried my best to gather my strength he stared absently at the doctor's desk, when I finished speaking he soon stood up and left without a word of comment, On our way home he asked the driver to take us home instead since he was not too well to drive, he didn't eat properly nor held his laptop to work that day and spent hours only looking pensive and didn't even try to talk with me to see how I was doing nor I tried speaking with him, I understood that no matter how he bluffed about this matter in the past he in reality didn't think that the results would be this bad, I'm not a selfish person.. While watching tgis state of his I already promised myself that if he wanted to have a child of his own then I will give him the freedom to do that with another woman, it wasn't until we were late in night and I walked out of the bathroom after taking a shower before bed that I finally gathered my courage to go speak to him, he was sitting on the sofa leaning his head on the back of it while closing his eyes, he opened them when I stood in front of him.

I took a deep breath, I merely called:

_"Eliyas"

When he suddenly hugged my waist and brought me closer to him, while resting his forehead on my belly he finally whispered:

_"Noursine, I will fix this.. I promise"

You see, Eliyas being the man that he is didn't accept it afterall, he took me to see so many other doctors next and although their answer was always the same: "that my uterus can hardly conceive for it's atypical anatomy and especially after the miscarriage I had, if a case of pregnancy happened which is pretty improbable then I can have a healthy child but the pregnancy itself will be risky for me and I should be continuously examined. the best thing they can do for me at the moment is to give me medication to raise the  chance of an implantation."

Eliyas got more enraged with every visit, he even started threatening doctors who were innocently just doing their work, he asked if a surgery should help, if i should take more medication.. At the villa he started to ignore his work to read medical books instead, to simply put it he was turning into an obsessed man, and into a desperately hope seeking man.

I understand him.. I really do, i know how guilty he must be feeling and how scared he was of my reaction towards all this.

I inevitably noticed how more caring he was getting towards me: the fewer reports i had at work, the shrinking working hours of my whole office and the payment bonuses. He started to spend more hours with me in the villa, stopped telling me about the problems with the work, he smiled more often and kept introducing me to more and more gynecologists promising everytime that the result will be different.