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Chapter 15:

Ziggy
March 13
12:00 pm

"Hopefully I can stop taking all these meds soon cause I got shit to do and places to be" my momma said while she paced the kitchen back and forth while my grandma sat at the table with me, shaking her head

I just looked at her, watching her rant for the whole 3 hours I've been here. I felt my eyes sting while I just stared, not because I was about to cry or anything. I'm probably out of tears to cry anyways.

I skipped 5 days of school straight before I eventually went back and let Geo tell it, I've been on zombie mode ever since but truth be told I just was mentally over everything. If I could run away right now I would however I can't and instead, I'm sitting here listening to my momma go on and on about nothing

"Zakia, babygirl how is school going? You decided what college you wanna go to?"

"Unfortunately I didn't get accepted into any colleges yet" I told her with a sigh and my momma looked over at me while she continued to pace the floor

"You'll be alright baby. You still got 3 more years before you graduate anyways. You got time to apply again" she told me while waving her hand. I looked at her strange

"I graduate in 2 months"

She stopped walking to look directly in my face "you do?"

"We talked about this last time I came over here"

My grandma nudged me while my momma rubbed her face, seeming like she was tryina to figure out what in the hell was going on. Well I was tryina figure that out too

"Hold on. I'll be right back" she mumbled as she walked out of the kitchen while I still sat here clueless, looking at my grandma waiting for an answer

"Zakia.. a lot has changed with your momma since you last came over here. And it's not in a good way"

"I can tell..."

"She's been doing that a lot lately. The other day she asked me what time your daddy was coming home. I don't know what's going on and why she's been like this but I scheduled a doctors appointment for her"

"Do you think it's the medicine they got her trying?"

" I'm not sure but I do know that over the past few years, your momma has been getting worse and it's more than just her mental health at this point. All this medicine and her neglecting to take care of her health, things not gonna turn out good for her and I try to tell her that but she don't listen"

I looked off to my right while running my tongue across my teeth. I most definitely didn't have time for nomore bullshit, especially some mess like this. And at this point I just wanted to get back in my bad. Coming over here was a bad idea

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"You ready to tell me what's wrong now?" Geo asked me while he laid on my bed beside me. I shrugged, laying on my stomach with my face turned away from him

"You remember right after all the stuff happened with my parents and your momma took me and you to the beach to make me feel better"

"Yeah.. that trip was lit"

"And remember that game me and you played where I piled all the stuff on top of you that was in the hotel room until you started crying that you couldn't breathe"

I felt Geo as he sat up a little and looked at me "I thought we said we wasn't gone bring that up nomore"

I laughed softly while turning my head to look at him "I remember you kept saying the stuff was getting heavier making it harder to breathe but you wanted to keep going so I kept piling stuff until you eventually gave up... well that's how I feel right now"

"Like you can't breathe? I need to take you to the hospital?"

"No- I don't mean it literally Geovonni" I laughed again cause he was so damn slow "it's just so much happening and I can't take it. This load of shit I'm dealing with gets heavier and I think I'm about to reach my breaking point"

"You gone be fine Ziggy"

"I'm not fine. I won't ever be fine. My life is shit. I have no family, no friends... all I got is you"

"And what am I?"

"My other half" I answered "you really all I got and I'm so scared what's gone happen after we graduate"

"Whatchu mean?"

"I know we ain gone be around each other like that nomore"

"You the one tryina go off across the country"

"Well not nomore. It look like I might not be be going at all"

"I told you my momma said she'll see what she can do"

"What if she can't help? What ima do then?"

"We'll figure some out. I told you I got you and I mean it zakia. Shit, ion even know if I wanna go to college yet but if I do. I wanna apartment. My own shit so I can follow my own rules"

I scoffed

"Typical Geo"

"Of course. But we can get one together" he suggested while he laid back down and threw his arm around me

"Me and you as roommates?"

"Why you say it like that?"

"I was just saying"

"You'on think we could be roommates?"

I shrugged "ion know.. could we?" I asked as I looked him in the face, which was inches away from mine

"As long as we can still have sex.. and lots of it. I think we'll be fine"

I sucked my teeth, laughing which caused him to do the same

"Nah forreal though. Ion see nothin wrong with us sharing an apartment together"

"I don't see nothing wrong with it either, other than what's gonna happen when one of us start dating or something"

"Shitttt.... you plan on being in a relationship anytime soon?"

"I wasn't really talkin bout me Geo... I'm talkin bout you"

"Me? In a relationship? Hell no"

" mhmmm" I muttered

"I thought you knew me better than that"

"You'll grow out of this hoe phase one day. Then you'll end up wanting to settle down and start a family"

"I do wanna daughter one day. And name her melody"

"Melody?" I repeated and Geo nodded

"Yeah"

"That's cute. I might steal that name from you if I have a girl first"

Geo sat back up a little "I'll beatcho ass"

"You can be the god daddy"

"Or.. I can just be the daddy" he grinned as he grabbed my thigh

"Whatever Geo" I laughed before letting out a long sigh and looked at him again "I thank you for being a great friend"

"I told you I got you Ziggy.. forever"

"You better.. cause at this point you all I got" I told Geo while I picked something out of his hair then grabbed his hand and pulled him all the way down to lay with me