Halo

Cracked

By the time it reached midnight Bad was out like a light, but I laid on my side watching him sleep. He looked graceful, even with his hood on.

Gad damn it Bad...Why are you like this? You continue dragging me in different directions. When you look at me like that, when you get so close to me that I can feel your breathing against my lips, or my neck...When you hold me so close that it's warm, even in the coldest weather...And when you smile at me, with the warmest gaze...But then you pull away and hide from me..What are you so scared of? What are you concealing?

Slowly I moved a bit closer since he was facing me and I froze. His lips were very slightly parted, eyelashes resting perfectly atop his cheek bones, like butterflies when they rest on your fingers, graceful and beautiful.

"Bad...Please...Just reject me already...I know you know I've fallen for you...So either reject me or something, just...Let me know. Not knowing hurts much more than anything else you could do to me." My voice was very quiet...coming out like a whimper instead of confident.

I leaned into his lips slightly and stopped myself when I felt his breathing against the skin.

God...I need a drink.

I went to turn away and get up but was stopped by Bad putting his arms around my lower back, pulling me so close that our lips met for just a second...Though it was short and accidental, my heart stopped beating and my body instantly went hot.

"B-bad?" I whispered, part of me hoping that he was awake...But when he didn't respond and his hold on me didn't loosen I sighed.

His lips are so soft....I want to feel them again....I wanna kiss him...over and over... It's all I want...to feel Bad...to kiss him...On his lips...everywhere...again and again...I wanted to be in be- No why am I thinking about this...Bad is my best friend and that's all ,Nothing more

I stopped myself from leaning in again and smiled to myself, leaning closer to his neck so I could lay my head under his chin like I had slept before....I liked being like this with Bad, even though he knew I had a crush on him and pulled me in every which way...But I'd be willing to wait...To figure out his feelings.

After a while, I wasn't sure how long...I woke up, still tightly pressed against Bad's chest. His hold on me was much lighter now so I could get up now.

I carefully untangled our limbs so I didn't wake him up by accident. I needed some water so I left his room to go down to the lunch area...

Bad was right, it's much creepier at night in the church when all the lights are off.

I paused before heading to the door that led down the stairs to the second floor, hearing people talking. It wasn't my business but I quietly walked and stood beside the wall since the door was open.

"Has he shown anything more than them?" A woman's voice came from the office...I decided I should just go until I heard Father Johnny speak. "You left Bad here over 10 years ago. You show up out of the blue to just let me know that Lust is out and about?"

Bad? What did he have to do with this? He told me he was adopted when he was four by Father Johnny...Now he was seventeen and I was sixteen...Could this woman be his mother?

"I'm not supposed to be here to warn you...But the boy is in danger. If Lust gets to him and breaks that seal, then all nine gates could open." She said, slamming something on the desk.

What the fuck? Seal? Gates? She's bactshit crazy.

"He's safe. He has a reason to stay the way he is. A young boy that he's in love with."

I felt myself smiling.

"You don't want him to just like you. You want him UNDER you...or OVER you."

I looked around...Had I just thought that?

I ignored it and jogged back to Bad room, jumping on top of him, which made him groan and move some, but he didn't open his eyes.

I continued to lay flat on top of his body since he had rolled over on top of his stomach while I was gone and I cooed in his ear.

"Bad, let's go on a date tomorrow. Just us." I could feel heat radiating off my cheeks, but I wanted to spend a day out with him, hopefully able to find out how he really felt, and if the priest was right.

He inhaled and lazily spoke. "I spend everyday with you Geppy."

His nickname me had made my heart skip, mainly when his sleep voice was so rough, much different than when he was awake and full of energy.

"Please Bad? I'll get off." I said, now pressing the palms of my hands against his shoulder blades so I could steady myself and sit on his lower back, one leg pressed to each of his sides...But also very careful not to hurt him.

"Mm...Can I at least lay on my back?" He mumbled, making me glup. This position was already intimate...Him laying on his back, able to face me...Felt like it would be so much more than just a little intimate.

"Answer me first." I said, suddenly feeling stubborn.

I tilted my head lightly to see the time. It was almost six A.M...

"We can, if you let me lay on my back." He responded, sounding a little more awake now.

I inhaled, leaning heavily on my left leg to lift my right one over his back. He rolled onto his back and I laughed quietly, moving my right leg back over him, resting it against his side again.

I felt heat rising in my cheeks as his hands came up to my hips, holding me steady in case I fell.

"You really want to spend the day out? With just me...I mean we can help out around the church."

His voice wasn't fully back to normal just yet, but he was wide awake now...

"Kiss him...Lean down and break him, make every inch of his body...His skin...Yours. Don't you want to be his first everything for the rest of his life?"

I shook my head...Why was I suddenly thinking like that again? I never had strong desires to do anything with him other than kissing until very recently...

"I want to." I spoke out, mostly talking to the voice in my head but my words reached Bad, making him sigh and rub soft circles into my hips, his fingers below my shirt...God....Friends don't do these kinds of things with each other.