Letting Myself Free

Chapter1

Hoseok POV

My butt is hurt-no my whole body is hurt wanna know why? I guess you want. Well he just raped me again. I badly hurt physically, emotionaly and mentally. I just want to go to eomma Jin and Appa Namjoon. But I know he will just do what he do a while ago.

I'm sleepy. I can't sleep. While him? He's sleeping peacefully. I hope he sleep forever-not that he'll die. Because when he's asleep he looks like an angel. He can't hurt me.

"I'll always love you Yoongi. Even if it's hurt. It's my promise remember? I promised in front of god in front of the people who attended our wedding that I'll always love you. In sickness or in health. In reacher or poorer. I'll love you until I die. You know? I'm always keeping my promises. Even I'm badly hurt I still keep it. But you? Cant you keep your promise? It is that hard? Before ypu always says You love me. You said you want to build a big family with me. But now....many things had changed already. I don't even know why you just change. I want to be pregnant already. My mother always told me that baby was made by love. Tgen how we suppose to make a baby if you dont love me? What if I'll be pregnant b-because you're always r-raping me. Is not a sin right? It's still made of love because i love you. I love you always remember that. Even when time comes that I'm very tired already. Im just tired. I'll go but Im not gonna take away my heart from you... My heart will always Belong to you." I silently whisper. Before going to my room.

I always doing that. Everynight since he changed. I dont know why.

TIME SKIPS~~

It was morning already. So i gp to the kitchen to cook foods. Today I'll cook Arozcaldo.

Dingdong!!

Tgere someone who ramg the bell. I close the stove and go there. I saw Jungkook.

"Good morning hyung." he kissed my cheeks. " hyung did he do ot again?" he whispered

"Yeah. Btw do you have it?" i asked I want to know it already.

"Yes. Hyung what ever happend remember that I'm here always huh?" I hugged him.

"I'll go huh?"

"Okay hyung goodluck! I'll wait!" What? I hope I'm not pregant. Not that I don't want it I just scared that Yoongi will not love the baby.

I'm about to go to the but room but I suddenly feel that my troat turn upside down. I throw up. But there's no food. Maybr because haven't eaten yet.

I just go to the Bathroom and start the process.

After a few minutes~~

I-i can't b-believe I'm Pregnant! Finally! I'm so happy yet I'm scared and sad. I know Yoongi will not love it. He will continue hurting me. If it was just me Its okay but I'm bearing his child.

B-but what if I'll tell Him? There's no badnin trying right? Maybe he'll like it?

But the other side of my brain is saying no. While my heart is saying yes. What should I follow? My heart or my brain?

They say the heart has no brain. But they also say the brain has no heart.

But I think I should follow my brain. Just this one. I think I should give my brain a chance. I'm always following my heart that's why I'm not yet leaving.