BILLIE'S POV
I left the interview that day and immediately took to instagram. I had noticed that y/n had been commenting on my post a lot, little compliments here and there. I never actually looked too much into her.
I pulled up her account and essentially stalked her account. Whatever dude. Don't make it weird. I just wanna know if she'd be a good fit for a collab. I was right. She was hot.
Like I said in the interview. I knew she was hot, I meant what I said. She could get it. IF she were a guy.
It was when we started to get to know each other that my opinion started to change. My heart was practically beating out of my chest when I sent her that DM. I was a little scared she would be an egotistical asshole and kill the whole vibe. But she was chill as fuck.
I was even more nervous when I invited her over to work on a song. She was even hotter in person. I played it cool though. There was no awkwardness between us throughout our work. We actually became really close. I found myself texting her everyday. Worst of all. I found myself looking at a picture I took of her for instagram all the time. It was throughout our time making music that I realized she was just hot. She was beautiful. Inside and out. It scared me. I found myself wanting to be with her all the time, and learn everything about her. So I did just that.
You:
hey mamas, wanna go grab lunch?Mamas🖤:
Is that even a question? Where we meeting?You:
Don't be dumb dude, Imma pick you upMamas🖤:
Alright damn Eilish. I'll be waiting babygirlMy heart fluttered at the nickname. It wasn't the first time y/n called me it. I also don't think I'm the only girl she's said it to. I keep telling myself that at least. I don't know why it made me hurt a little though to think about her talking to other girls. Weird.
I picked her up for lunch. Everything was going great. Until I opened my big ass mouth.
"You'd make like the perfect boyfriend dude" I joked when she offered to pay for the meal, opened the door for me when we came in, and even took my jacket before we sat down. I looked back up at her after the comment to catch the tail end of an eye roll.
"Y/n I'm sorry if that-""No Bils it's fine" she smiled, it was definitely half hearted. I looked back down and prodded my food with my fork. Y/n noticed. She reached her hand across the small table and placed it over mine. "I'm serious hun, it's fine. I get it a lot from girls." She chuckled. I gave her a sheepish smile in response.
"Still, I'm sorry. That was in poor taste. I don't want you to feel led on by me." I sighed.
"And why would I feel like that?" She huffed. "Because I'm a lesbian I'm not allowed to just be friends with a girl?" She was clearly annoyed and once again I regretted my words immediately.
"What!? No dude, that's not what I-" I paused. How the fuck do I word this without making her more pissed than she already is. "I mean like-"
Suddenly she started to laugh. "Fuck you should've seen your face" she covered her mouth to quite down her laughs as not to disturb the others around us.
I shot a glare at her. "what the fuck man. that's not cool." I tried to be mad but I couldn't help but laugh with her. I wasn't lying though. We would be perfect together. Conversation was easy with her. If, she were a man... of course.
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Am I Reckless To Love You?
FanfictionY/N is an idol in the LGBT music community. Billie has gone her entire career with false accusations on her sexuality. Maybe this time it isn't so false. MEDIA BASED FIC. INSTAGRAM, TWITTER, INTERVIEWS, ARTICLES ETC. it's ass don't read it i hate i...