Inside my head
Words are swarming around
Tornados of thoughts
But I keep them to myself
Because if I say them
They'll become reality
I want to die
That's the one
that storms through my mind most
If I leave now
Will I be satisfied?
What will my friends say
How will they react?
I want the pain
to stop
Physical pain
The belt
The mental abuse
You are worthless
no one loves you
And what if it's true ?
I know
I'm being selfish
Because
I want to leave
The people who "love me"
They say they will cry
Maybe it's true
And I feel
like a hypocrite
Because I am
If my friends
Left me
I would
Be heartbroken
Angry
Sad
So if I leave
What will happen?
Guys, I am so so so sorry. I am so selfish. I want to do the deed but... I love you all. I'm here for now but how much longer? I don't know.
I'm gonna stay strong, fight the temptation because of my love for all you 🥲
I love you all so much,
Lil ❤️
