when anybody smiles,
I think of you,
you were always smiling,
always happy.
you would say to me,
"I'm the 'cancer girl'
but I'm not gonna let that affect me."
because you were stronger than me,
you stood tall
and smiled.
not even your illness
got in the way of your happiness.
when I think of sunshine
and flowers,
I think of you.
and on this special day,
your birthday,
I cry,
wishing you were here.
because I miss my best friend,
so damn much.
so when I text that number
that is no longer active,
"happy birthday,"
I think of you,
and a tear rolls down my cheek.
I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect friend,
but you were.
you were the one
who could make me laugh,
make me feel safe.
so I look back at the pictures,
and I think of you.
happy birthday best friend.
up in heaven,
you are an angel,
and have always been.
