today used to be a happy day
but now it's a curse.
I've lived here on earth
much too many years
he said he wanted to give me
a surprise.
a surprise.
it was so naive of me
to agree.
black eyes
and bloody nose.
that was my surprise.
I don't even know
why I try
to smile anymore.
but as I sing
softly to myself
that birthday song
I think
I have yet to see
the good side of the world
the good mothers
and good fathers
and that,
that I want to see.
and even though this day is sad
I know I got friends who have now become family.
and with that I whisper,
happy birthday to me.
