Arranged Marriage With A Game Developer

Chapter 16

Nati's P.O.V.

Isang patak ng luha ang nahulog mula sa mata ko habang nakatitig sa papalayo nitong bulto. Dream didn't get to see that. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi upang pigilan ang sarili ko na tuluyang maiyak. He don't understand, this can never work for us. I trusted him once and look where it brought us.

Matapos ang ilang buntong-hiningang pinawalan ko ay saka lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas upang sundan ito. Hindi ko maiwasang ilibot ang tingin sa buong kabahayan habang naglalakad patungo sa direksyon kung saan ito pumunta.

The house is big enough to cater a family of ten members. This house is too lavish in my own opinion. I'm so used with my one bedroom apartment back in the Solstice that imagining myself in living in a big mansion feel so strange and odd.

Pagpasok ko sa kusina ay naabutan ko si Dream na abala sa pagluluto. There are some ingredients cluttering the counter table.

"Do you need any help?" Isa-isa kong tiningnan ang mga ingredients na ipinatong nito sa mesa. From the looks of it, it seems that he is cooking steak for us.

"Yes please. Wash the potatoes and cut it into half." Sagot nito na hindi lumilingon sa akin. Unlike a while ago, I am not sensing any kind of emotion from his voice.

Somehow I felt bad for what happened, but it is so much better than making him believe that I am okay with everything between us even though I am not. I am aware that it is not healthy for me to continue hating him despite the fact that we are getting married, but I can't forced myself to forgive him that easily either.

Inumpisahan kong gawin ang inuutos nito. Pagkatapos hugasan ay nagsimula akong hatiin ito sa gitna. Nasa kalagitaan ako ng paghihiwa ng biglang dumulas ang kutsilyo dahilan upang mahagip niyon ang gitnang daliri ko.

"Ow!" I hissed and put down the knife immediately.

"What happened." Iglap lang ay nasa tabi ko na si Dream. Hinila ako nito patungo sa lababo at saka pinandar ang tubig gripo at itinapat sa dutsa ang daliri kong nasugatan. "I turn my back on you for one minute, then your hurt yourself."

Nakagat ko ang gilid ng upang pigilan ang sarili kong sagutin ito. Pinatay nito ang gripo at saka kumuha ng tissue paper upang tuyuin ang kamay ko.

"Stay here," Humakbang ito paalis ng kusina. Ilang saglit pa ay bumalik ito na may bitbit nang isang medicine box. He attended my wounds and put some disinfectant to it before covering it with a gauze. Hindi ko maiwasang titigan ito habang nasa daliri kong nasugatan ang buong atensyon nito. Dream has always this thoughtful attitude. He's a bit snob to some that he is not that close, but to his family and friends he is always sweetest. "Ako na ang bahala rito sa kusina. You go and check the house and see if there's something that you want to add or change in the design."

"But I want to help–."

"No, you're not helping. You are just hurting yourself." Putol nito sa pagpoprotesta ko. "This is our date anyway. Ako ang nag-aya sayo kaya ako dapat ang magprepare sa pagluluto. Now go away, you're disturbing me." Pagtataboy nito sa akin.

Wala akong nagawa kundi sundin ito. I walk out of the kitchen and make my way towards the grand staircase. Isa-isang kung binuksan ang mga silid na naroon upang inpeksyunin iyon. Each of the room has its own unique theme. I am looking around the house until I finally manage to get into the master's bedroom.

I walk inside the room and take a sit on the bed while looking around. The room is twice as big as the other rooms in this mansion. Wala sa loob na napangiti ako habang inililibot ng tingin sa paligid. Somehow, this house reminds me of an old memory, during the times when our relationship is in its peak.

"I want a big house, that way our babies can have a lot of space to run around and play." Wika nito dahilan upang mabaling ang tingin ko sa kanya.

Kinunutan ko ito ng noo.

"We're just in our two months, Dream. You're already thinking about having a baby?" Nakangising wika ko saka tinaasan ito ng kilay.

We are currently in his condo. We usually stay here after class to play games, watch some movies, and sometimes I just watch him program or design his games before I go home. There are times that he teaches me how build games and the basics of it which I really enjoy doing. However, there are also times that we are simply lying on his bed, cuddling with each other and talking about stuffs.

"What? Don't you want to have my baby in the future?" Balik tanong nito sa akin saka pumaibabaw sa akin. Napatitig ako sa kulay berde nitong mga mata. His eyes is really one of the things that never fail to take my breath away. It's just, it's so beautiful. And I find it so unfair for someone like him to be this beautiful, smart, and rich. This world has favoritism.

"We're too young to think of that." Katwiran ko rito. "Marami pang pwedeng mangyari."

Feelings, like seasons, faded and changes. That is one thing that I learned about love. The idea of Dream and me building a family warms my heart, it stirs something inside my stomach, making me feel anxious or maybe excited since those two emotions has similar effect to a person. Subalit sa kabila niyon at hindi pumasok sa isipan ko na ito na ang makakasama ko hanggang sa pagtanda. I am aware that Dream's feeling can change, so is my feelings for him.

"I want us to stay like this forever." Mahinang wika nito saka marahang hinaplos ang gilid ng pisngi ko. He lean down closer to me, putting soft kisses on the side of my lips, to my cheeks, down to my neck. Napasinghap ako ng gumapang ang halik nito patungo sa leeg ko, pababa sa gilid ng tenga ko. My sweet spot. I feel my body starts to heat up, wanting to feel more of him.

Making out like this became very common for us, but this afternoon feels different. Dream feels so possessive than his usual self, more demanding.

"Nati... I want you." Mahinang bulong nito sa gilid ng tenga ko.

Napasinghap ako sa sinabi nito. I know that our relationship is going to lead to this point, but until now I'm not sure if I am ready for it. Napigil ko ang paghinga ko ng bumaba ang halik nito patungo sa puno ng dibdib ko. There are still a soft fabric that's covering my body, but it is not to shield me from feeling the warmth of his lips.

Though there's a doubt on my chest, I decided to stay still and let him make his way. I feel his hand reach out for the buttons of my blouse and remove it one by one. Nakagat ko ang ilalim ng labi ko ng tuluyan nang humantad ang dibdib ko rito na natatakpan lamang ng kulay pink na bra. His hands reach out to the clasp of the small lace fabric that's covering my chest, taking it off completely from my body.

Bahagya itong umangat mula sa akin at pinakatitigan ako. I can't help but blush upon feeling the intensity of his heated gaze in my skin. The lust in his eyes in undeniable, making it change color to a deeper green. My arms automatically crosses my chest with the aim to cover my chest but he is quick to catch my wrist, not giving me a chance to shield myself from what is about to happen.

"You're so beautiful, Nati." Wika nito saka muling sinakop ang labi ko. He didn't give me a chance to say no. Not that I want to deny him either.

I ended up giving myself to him that day, until the picture of us in his room, naked, exploring each other's body became very common for us. Dream is such a sweet lover, and I'm glad he was my first. He showed me the beauty of love that I firstly thought only existed in romance books.

However, just like the most classic romance novel that has promising start, ours ended in a tragic way. I never saw it coming, that's why when I learned about it, it broke me into pieces that I didn't get the courage to confront him.

'Tell me how can I get you back...'

Tila may kung anung pumiga sa dibdib ko ng maalala ang pagmamakaawa sa tinig nito. Humiga ako sa kama at tumitig sa kisame.

I don't know, Dream. I lost that part of me who loves you deeply along with the process of redeeming myself. Now that you're back. I don't know what and how to react. I'm confuse, but trusting you again gives me so much fear. I'd rather be in a loveless relationship, than deeply falling in love with you and ended up hurting myself again in the process.