Romancing The Ice Prince

Chapter 38.

Chapter 38.

Turning Point Part 3

I blinked.

But it was still dark. Hollow and somber.

The silence was deafening.

I wish for the sun. For a light. Or even a sound. But I knew there wouldn't be any. The room will remain immersed in darkness.

I knew.

Because I've been here before.  All the time.

I didn't bother standing up. Hindi na rin ako nag-abalang magtawag at humingi ng tulong. There were no tears this time. Alam ko na mangyayari o ang kawalan ng mangyayari.

Palaging ganito. I would always find myself lying on a cold floor. Alone in this hell.

I closed my eyes when the coldness started to envelop me. I wonder kung kailan ako magigising sa panaginip na 'to.  Kung kailan darating ang liwanag.

I've always wondered why my dreams are always like this. Paulit-ulit. Walang nagbabago. Hanggang sa magising ako nang umiiyak: not because of fear, but because of too much emptiness na palagi kong nararamdaman sa panaginip na ito. Masyadong mabigat sa pakiramdam.

And maybe, alam ko na ngayon kung bakit.

Maybe this was my heart. This is how I feel.

Empty and meaningless.

Or maybe this was hell.

At dito ako hahantong.

And maybe that's when the fear comes creeping in. Maaalala ko si Alex. Ang anak ko. Ano nang mangyayari sa kanya? Hindi ko yata kayang umalis sa mundong ito.

Pero bakit walang liwanag dito? Mayroon akong Alex, the light of my whole world. But what is this?

Maybe I would never understand.

I stiffened when I heard a sound. Dagliang nagbukas ang aking mata at napaupo.

I shivered. Sa ilang beses na panaginip ko'y hindi nagkaroon ng tunog. It was always just my heartbeat, my breathing, the faint sounds of my body screeching against the cold floor and... nothing. Just the sounds I make.

Napaigtad ako nang mayroon uli akong marinig. Parang tunog iyon ng pintong binubuksan.

But how? This place was endless. Sinubukan ko nang maghanap ng labasan, I ended up exhausted. There's no way out.

At kung may tunog man na wala noon, bakit hindi pa rin ako nagigising?

I closed my eyes, hoping against hope na magising na ako mula sa panaginip na 'to. I counted from one to three.

One. Two. Three.

I opened my eyes and lightness came, blinding me, sucking me into my beautiful past.

 

 

 

"Can I kiss her already?" he asked, love was so much visible in his ocean blue eyes. He was happy. It was the color of his eyes everytime he's happy.

My heart warmed at that thought. I make him happy.

"Hijo, kakaumpisa pa lang natin, mamaya pa iyon"

I laughed softly at bumaling sa nakakunot-noong pari. I smiled at him at napangiti na rin ito.

"I'm sorry,  father. He was just kidding. Please continue," I said as I squeeze Miguel's hand. Pinandilatan ko siya ng mata upang tumahimik na.