Mikasa X Eren: An Unknown Love

Selfish

Mikasa POV

It broke my heart. Why did it have to be like this? I wanted to tell him: ‘I love you too.’ But I couldn’t, if I did, it would be selfish of me. I couldn’t. When he told me, I just wanted to hug him and accept his feelings. But if I did, something terrible would happen to him. I pushed his hand way. I had to break his heart. It was the only way. If I push him away from me enough, his feelings for me will evaporate.

‘Eren, I’ve only ever seen you as a friend. Sorry.’ I grab my bag and walk away from him then leave him by himself in the park. I didn’t want this. I never wanted this. Why couldn’t we just have a normal life? A life where no one could ruin our happiness, but I think I was asking too much. When the park was far away I stopped walking then covered my mouth. I cried into my hands then let out all my feelings. The tears wouldn’t stop flowing out of my eyes.

Why was I crying?

I don’t understand.

This is what I wanted to do. This is what I needed to do.

My breath caught in my throat then I began walking again. I was walking, then walking quicker, in the end I broke into a sprint then ran as fast as I could. I threw myself at the door then unlocked it with my house keys. Throwing my bag into to the hallway I ran upstairs with tears streaming down my face. As I walked into my room I could see across my window Eren’s room. Walking towards my window I shut the blinds quickly then gripped them tightly. My breath got caught in my throat then more tears poured out.

I love him. I love him so much, yet why did this have to happen? The outcome was just too cruel.

I could go to him then tell him I was lying. For a moment I could perhaps just let him love me.

But if I did that, it would be selfish, and in the end someone was going to get hurt.