my blue (A.K x reader)

chapter 5

March 5th 12 pm

Im tierd but they are all having fun so stay awake y/n dont ruin they're fun ty looks over and sees my eyes getting droopy "ey bitch wake up"i look at them "i am?....right? Im awake" they sigh "yes your awake dumbass im saying open your eyes" i nod but had a hard time "y/n if you don't wake up ill get your pen and make you get high" "nooooo then i do stupid shit like playing just dance on youtube and wondering why im loosing" awsten goes to face palm but accidentally slaps himself i die as he holds his head "you ok blue?" Fuck did i just call him blue they're all looking at you shit fuck my chest hurts god its a sharp pain god it hurts "y/n? Shit y/n are you having a panic attack" ty sits infront of me noticing the signs as i just grip my chest almost in tears "hey hey breath with me i know it hurts as soon as you calm down we can go home breath with me" i try my head gets fuzzy and i fall into they're arms "and shes passed out" awsten walks over worried "whyd she have one" ty sighs "honestly i dont know anything could have set it off im gonna take her home she should rest" "here ill carry her ty" ty hesitantly nodded "ok necrophyliac" awsten looked at them weird and picked me up carrying me into my apartment and laid me on my bed "im sorry this happened y/n you cant hear me- probably but here its my lucky hoodie" awsten lays his pink flower hoodie on me and kisses my head walking out to ty "when she wakes up tell her to come back over i feel bad and wanna treat her with lunch or dinner" ty nods as they look through mail "awsten" awsten stops and looks at them "you know shes looked up to you for years she loves you more than herself and if you hurt her ill make sure people forget waterparks existed" awstwn gulped and nodded running back to his apartment

¤awstens point of view¤

Poor girl i didn't mean for her to have a panic attack whar happened? Was it something i said? Was it because she felt weird when everyone looked at her? i just wanted her to feel safe at my house god awsten your an idiot you can't make one person feel safe "hey aws is y/n ok?" Otto looks at me i shrug "i think she will be she has ty and i know ty will look over her so i think she will be" he nods smiling "i like her shes crazy but nice like you aws i see why ty called her an awsten kinnie once" i laugh sitting beside him "me to bud me to" geoff looks over "wheres your hoodie you never take it off" i look down and at him "oh i left it with y/n cause i felt like she could use it while in this state plus i have so many more one missing wont do a thing" of course its my favorite hoodie but sometimes when you care about someone you give up something that means alot to you even if it hurts and honestly id give her everything

°y/ns dream°

I walk into my house it had stairs right where you walked in and a kitchen to the left living room on the right upstairs right ahead was a closet and to the left down the hall the whole way was a bed room and on the right the whole way was a bathroom so i walked in taking my shoes off and hear singing from upstairs I laugh and follow it "Awsten? Is that you my blue" i follow the sound and open our bedroom door instead of seeing awsten i saw my ex a knife and blood everywhere awsten dead i scream and run as fast and as far as i can soon i fell off a cliff screaming but soon seeing awsten falling with me he held his hand out and i took it we fell together hitting the cold water i looked over and awsten was gone i swam to surface no sign of life or land i was deserted in an ocean i scream for help from anyone soon my screams getting smaller and smaller the harder I tried the quieter i got i sobbed wanting to be held by my blue again i soon saw a fin swimming fast paced at me i tried swimming away but it got me

•out of y/ns dream•

I wake up in a panic tears streaming down my face the dark room panics me as i frantically turn on my light i gasp sobbing as ty runs in looking at me "shit y/n are you ok?" I nod slowly calming down and catching my breath "what happend y/n?" I quietly mumble "just another nightmare that fucks with me" ty sighs and hugs me "hey whos hoodie is that" i look down and grab the hoodie "this- is awstens lucky hoodie he wears it at every concert in an interview he said that in his mind it makes him feel like he does his best" ty raises an eyebrow "whys it here? Did he give it to you?" I shrug "i don't know i mean i guess so he was wearing it before i-....passed out of course i embarrassed myself infront of my idols im such a fucking idiot ty" theu flick my nose "stop talking about yourself like that your perfect and obviously if he left you the hoodie he thinks your important too so put the hoodie on curl up watch ponyo and sleep" they pat my back and leave my room i take my shirt off and put the hoodie on laying down putting ponyo on am i important to awsten? I mean why else would he leave his favorite lucky hoodie he probably was embarrassed for you dont get your hopes up that he likes you your just a waste of a person lets be honest your gonna die alone and everyone knows that i wish sometimes i could disappear i dont wanna die but i also don't wanna be here in this moment but god for bid anyone gets that i just wish i had someone who understood and would tell me how important i am and kiss my head telling me they love me....thats what i want.