Twice Oneshots

Chaeyoung - I'm doing fine

Your POV

I have a crush on my best friend, Son Chaeyoung while she... crush on my cousin Kim Namjoon hyung. Why do this need to be triangle love... I have crush on her since we first met... since childhood... For her, maybe since when Namjoon hyung came to my house last month. Since then, she always ask me about him. Its hurt!

My mom said today Namjoon's family will come tonight for bbq. And... she also invite Chae's family to join us, so later I will pick she and her brother, Jeonghoon. So maybe I will stay with Jeonghoon and have some fun with him.

Earlier at school, she talked about Namjoon hyung only. She's too excited to meet him again while me, I dont they to meet each other.. hmm.. 

My mom knock and enter my room "Sungho ya... Go buy me some snacks and drinks for later, then you can pick Chaeyoung with her brother. " my mom say and gives the money, then left. I get up from my pc table and go wash my face. Then, I change to jeans and gray hoodie.

I take the key car and drive to convenience store. I pick bunch of snacks and 2 box of drinks, soju and coke. After put all the things that I bought, I drive to Chae's house. I know she will be late so I just go knock their door.

Someone open the door, its Jeonghoon. "Oh hey hyung! Are you early or my sister take too much time?" he ask. "I think both.." I lazily go and plop myself on the couch. After few minutes, Chae finally enter the living room. She's wearing white dress with jeans. The dress quite thin.

"Chae.. Dont you think that you will catch cold later?" I ask. "Yeah noona.. that seems quite thin." Jeonghoon say. "No uhh, its alright. Let's go" Chae quickly get out the house. She seat at the passenger seat while Jeonghoon sit at the back. After 10 minutes drive slowly, we finally arrive at my house.

I take the snacks and drinks that I bought earlier, and get in my house. Then, I head straight to kitchen and I see Chae is helping my mom and aunt.. Wait! Aunt? They said they will arrive late.. "Mom" then I put the things on tabletop. "You want any help?" I ask my mom. "No but you maybe can help your dad at the back." mom reply. 

I go to the backyard and notice my dad, uncle, Jeonghoon and.. Namjoon hyung.. I go to Namjoon hyung to do our cousin handshake. Actually Namjoon hyung and I are close since our house are closer than the other cousins. "Dad, wanna help?" I ask my dad. "I think you boys can set the bbq place while me and uncle will cook the meat later." All of us 3 quickly set the place. Arrange some chairs and table, heat up some fire. Then, we rest for a while at chair.

"Boys! Come here take the foods!" my mom call us. We go to kitchen. I want to take the plates near Chaeyoung but she quickly gives it to Namjoon hyung. I see they exchange smile. Its normal I guess.. I take the snacks and drinks and plate full of meat. We start the bbq after the sun goes down.

I'm full now. Hehehe.. well.. I ate 2 plates of meat, some snacks, 2 apples, 1 coke and some plain water... I chill for a while.. Then, "Sungho ya, you still play guitar right?" Namjoon hyung ask me. "Ah yeah.. still.. wait here" I say.. I go to my room and take 2 jackets since I feel cold and I see Chae start shivering earlier, then I take my guitar with me..

I go back to backyard "Chae..." I cant complete my words cause I see Namjoon hyung is giving his jacket to Chae.. I quickly hide my another jacket at store and go to backyard. I just fake my smile.. "Any songs to play?" I ask the other 3 (Chae, Namjoon hyung, Jeonghoon) because our parents already chill inside the house.

We sang few songs.. English and Korean songs since Chae is a fan of Justin Bieber.. Lastly, I play her favourite song, 'Boyfriend'.. actually I always dedicate that song to her but maybe she's too dense to realize my feelings. In the singing session, I saw both of them look at each other.. Dont tell me.. that.. he like her.. too... f***!

After the last song ends, our parents call us since its getting late and tomorrow is Monday. I bid Namjoon's family goodbye.. and.. Namjoon hyung ask for Chae's number before going home.. and she gives it.. Ughhh! How much more do I need to suffer.... After their car already gone from my vision, I get the key car.. "Lets go.. I send you guys home" I say and go to the car.

After that night, she always talk about him. They seems close.. I'm jealous, Chae.. After 2 months chats and calls, they finally are official couple. Of course, hyung are the one that make the move since Chae is too shy.. I want to go far away from her but I cant.. She is my happy pills... 

I loves her reaction whenever she gets strawberry products (cakes, milk, etc).. Her smile everytime she got her birthday presents, wins games against me (I let her win ok) and more.. 

I always be her no. 1 supporter/ fan.. From the day she went to audition until the day she's debut.. But Namjoon is always her priority.. She always told Namjoon first.. sometimes she forgot but me being me, I said "Its fine, at least you're telling me now".. Its hurt whenever I need to say that..

Then, the day Namjoon propose her... She's so happy that time.. She called me and told me the news... Of course, I fake everything.. I said I'm happy for her while holding my tears.. When the call ends, I was so messy.. my house was a mess.. Luckily that time I already live by myself..

Today.. guess what.. Today is day they will marry.. I'm Namjoon's best man... since we're so close... I see Namjoon hyung so nervous about that marriage.. I calm him down eventhough I'm so beyond hurt.. Its the time for you guys on aisle.. I just stand near Namjoon holding the ring, your ring.. I see the door open, reveals you with your dad, smiling walk to Namjoon.. I'm trying my best to hold my tears, you're so beautiful and .. thinking the thought of we should be together..

After that aisle thing (I dont know), I quickly excuse myself from the venue.. I say that I have something urgent in office, and everyone believes it.. I drive to Han River.. that time the sun just goes down so not many people there.. I take off my blazer and tie.. I walk along the river.. After few minutes walk, I stop near a tree.. I shout there.. I cry on the tree.. I lay beside the tree..

"Why? Why I dont confess to her earlier? Why it must to be someone I close? Why I cant move on from you?" I cry while cover my face with my right arm.. Then I feel like I'm getting wet.. I remove my arm.. Its rain.. Even the world understand me.. I stay there for another hour..

I get home later near midnight.. The next day, I get fever.. Another next day, I go to work and ask for change branch... Luckily there's a position for me on the other branch and its in Japan.. I immediately accept it.. I guess this is my time to fully move on from her and try to find someone else...