So i picked today And i am going to spill out what i have lost Everything The night is high dark and dewy There are few stars No moon to be seen Typical What to a night for mourning my heart out Okay so i have a diary Here on my lap And a pen Let's start What did i lose first? Hmmmm do i have to write things too Or emotions Or people Okay Arya focus Umm so i lost my patience first because i was tired of waiting upon things I am still am Then i lost my stability Being stable is a dream for me Then i lost my focus Over things i shouldn't have That i wasn't meant to And i lost of friends next Because they thought i was getting rude everyday they never understood what i was going through and i don't think i ever bothered to even explain. Then lost you wasn't supposed to let you go but i couldn't hold myself how would i hold you? Then gave up with my sanity it was going to go with you And then lost my control Control over people Control over thoughts Control over emotions Everything Some nights i think why do i even exist? Like why? Seriously that thing comes across my mind so many times Its getting harder to fight I have lost myself I feel empty Still i am waking up everyday Doing things everyday Because i can loose But i won't give up Not on myself I have lost me But I'll find it back No matter what!
2. CRAVINGS
You came Unexpectedly Totally unexpectedly And you changed Everything You changed me That was something good something bad But i used to crave for your vibe day and night You were the first person i would think of When i would wake Up The last person on my mind everyday I wanted you As badly as a baby wants cotton candy I thought you were the sweetest part of me But you were not even a part Anyways You were a dream A sweet one Okay the sweetest I ever had And damn I got you You were mine Playing hard and smooth I got you We had moments together i don't have words to describe Your hand on mine Your head on my shoulder Your laughter Your voice Ahh that makes me grin till now Magical Enchanted Blissful Speechless I had a nightmare too You'd leave of all the people i had you were the one i treasured the most And i thought you'd leave I am a pessimistic girl And you did Same way Unexpectedly Changing me Totally All the dreams came true Daydreams and nightmares everything ...
3.S H E
She She She Who is she? Let's start this I have been hearing a lot About rapes lately And i kept quiet not NOW We live in a country Where she is worshipped Where she is a goddess Where her pujas are festivals And holidays But here She is also Raped Assaulted Mentally Emotional Physically In every possible way She is said to be independent But its not in her freedom to have night walks She is said have speech But she is deprived of voice She is slut shamed She gets called by names She is judged by her body Curves She is defied by the media Because they have taken her as granted How ironical? When even the goddess of voice is her?!?! You know who is she? She is me She's you She is your mother Your sister Your daughter You niece Your teacher She made you Each and everyone of you Still. She is tongue cut Spine broken She is dead And you aren't doing anything about it She is hiding her pains and bruises And you aren't seeing them either I think this is how it will go on She will die And one more she'll Die And you'll just be ignorant as you are now! ...
4.what if?
You know what hope Is? You! Times change I am not tis broken girl now I am waking up everyday not just to start a day but To hope and start a talk with you A lovely sweet conversation Everytime some song plays I mean a love song. My thoughts jump back to you I don't know how or why? But they do and i grin When you meet me Those eyes of yours Ufff i am in total goosebumps Sleepless nights thinking About you And i never did that This is the first time ever The time when you take me name from your lips Do you see cherry spots on my cheeks? Do you? I am smiling the whole day And that too at nothing at all I don't know what's gotten into me A day with you feels like seconds and nights without you feel like Years According to science its relativity but Please someone tell me what this is? Sunsets are feeling strangely gorgeous Stars are getting more familiar Moon is getting closer to my heart Dreams are getting dreamer I am getting obsessed With you Butterflies in my stomach the whole day Tickling Daydreaming What is this dude? What did you do me? Did you do some magic to blow my sleep and peace away?What if you are stuck in my head forever? What if you don't leave? So this is love. Is this love? What if i am in love?
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