1.You made me loose myself
That's the worst and the best thing that ever happened to me
The way you changed me
I swear to the devil no one could
No one
You made me the fire i am
You made me loose the innocence i held
Regretted nothing there
You made me better
You always did
Even when you aren't around anymore
Still you do
That's the control you have over me
Its really scary watching how someone can control me to a extent you do
Its creepy
Its satisfying too
No one could do that
Until you my life was straight
Planned
Orderly
You turned it upside down
Not in a negative way
In a way i never thought i could
I guess that's true
And i mean it
You're the only one for me
And i know it
And if i can't have you
I won't have anyone else
Because i can't
And this bitch heart of mine
Wouldn't let me as
ALWAYS
Love you endlessly from the depth of the ocean till the height of this sky
Always
And
FOREVER2.There is a weird pleasure in loving someone who doesn't love you"
"No there is a weird pain"3.Where did you waste all the 11.11s? "
"On him"4.wanted to be yours
Yours
And only
Y O U R S
But you never wanted me to be your mine
Never5.There is a hole in my heart
You
For you
Because of you
Waiting for you6.Scrolling alone along those roads
Among those woods
Remember this was our haven
In all our moods.
The cushion of leaves
Underneath the largest tree
Laying down on our backs
Gazing the stars
The exquisite feeling of being free.
One tonight
Still can smell you in this breeze
Still can hear your laughter
And your loud "JEEZZZ!"
Some way further
There is the treehouse wreck
Built utterly for decaying or
Our hide and seek's sake.
Shattered pieces of my heart
Still lay there untouched
Just some untimed tears
Clutched.
'Where is the other kid? '
Asks the old guy
'He he umm is a little busy!'
I call back a lil shy.
'Oh I see ' says he
'Why did you bother then bother to come alone in this maze?'
Taking a deep breathe I mutter,
'For the sake of good old days'7.We never get stronger at handling heartbreaks
Its always new
New pain
P A I N8.Not all poets
are heartbroken
some of us are
heartbreakers
~a
YOU ARE READING
after i gave up
Poetrysomebody out there is writing about you and you lo! are reading it without realising tragic.