"Where's Billie?", i asked someone in the hallway
"I saw her go in the bathroom", she answered.
I thanked her and walked to the bathroom.
Everyone had been telling me that Billie had been crying all throughout class and I wanted to check on her.
I walked in the bathroom and saw Billie crying on the floor.
"This can't be true", I started
"What?", she asked as she looked up at me.
"Please tell me ive been lied to", I replied
"What do you mean?" , she asked as tears dried up on her face
"Crying isn't like you" I said
She looked away
"What the hell did I do?" I asked
"I.. I just have never been the type to let someone see right through"
It took me a minute to get what she was talking about until she spoke up again.
"Maybe won't you take it back say you were trying to make me laugh and nothing had to change today."
"Take what back Billie I'm so confused", I admitted.
"Please tell me you didn't me to say I love you last night"
"But I do love you..." I said sadly
"WELL I DONT WANT TO", she yelled at me.
I got up and ran out the bathroom leaving her there I could bear to face rejection.
****
I was up all night, that night on another red eye
I wish we never learned to fly
She texted me
💔her- maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie to get our mind off of what's happening, I just wanna let you know I didn't mean to make you cry
Me- l- well this isn't a lie but I love you and I also don't want to
I threw my phone at the wall and heard it ding again, I waited a few seconds before I got up again to see what she had texted me.
💔her- can you meet me in The Park in 15 minutes.
I thought about it for a moment before getting out of bed and putting something comfortable on and leaving
*****
As I was walking though the park saw
Billie
She smiled and waved at me
That's the smile she gave me, even when she felt like dying.
A tear rolled down my cheek at that thought and I quickly wiped it away and continued walked to her.
We looked at each other for a moment before we fell apart in each other's arms as the darkness was all around us.
"I can't believe I'm in your arms in this very park", she said crying
(Ik it's Central Park I didn't say that because this takes place in LA)
"Billie there is nothing you could do or say I can't escape the way I love you"
"Y/n baby I love you"
"But I don't want to", we both said at the same time.
"We should explain why to each other so it'll make us feel a little better", she recommended.
I nodded before starting
"I can't get hurt again I don't wanna love you because if I do I feel as though I'm letting myself get hurt again", I admitted.
She looked at me for a second before starting
"Me too actually my last relationship was emotionally abusive and I was let down, I just don't want that to happen again"she let off her chest
"Maybe we could me there for each other since we have the same issues"
Billie nodded her head at that and we sat on a bench and held each other
She started humming.
"Oouu ouuu ouuu"
She perfect, I thought as we rocked back and forth.
"We're heading deep inside lives a voice, a voice so quiet
But I can't hear that voice when your heart beats next to mine"
~Ariana grande/cashmere cat "Quit"
