letters l.fl + h.hj

🍁003

dear hyunjin,

you always liked school. you were
amazing at it. you always got good
grades. but i didn't. everyday after school
you would come over to my house and
tutor me. tutor, laugh, watch a movie, fall
asleep and repeat. everyday we would do
that. you made me that happiest person
alive. but it would only happen for a
limited time. that made me sad. it made
me unhappy. i craved your attention.
i only wanted your attention on me.
you started to date our senior bang chan.
he would always steal your attention
away from me. i hated that. everyday
at lunch he would come and sit with
us. he would play with your hair.
that was my job. he made you smile
and laugh more than i ever could.
i was jealous that he had all your love.
later down the timeline you started hanging
out with me less and less. no more tutoring
sessions. no more movie nights. no more
cuddles. he took you away from me.
there was no more us.

love, your lost love