Broken {Zarry Stylik}

Chapter 107

Harry's POV
Zayn and I had been trying for 2 weeks now, but each time our hopes would be shattered as the cold hard truth that it will never happen was shoved into our faces.

We both agreed that with tour right around the corner we'd take a break from trying. It took a bit of persuading to get him to agree - making sure he knew we wouldn't be giving up - before he gave in and decided that it was for the best.

I know that he was upset with the decision that was made but it wasn't as bad as being let down once your eyes are met with the negative test, only to break down and believe that no matter how hard you try you'll never be able to succeed.

But we weren't going to give up. I wasn't going to let us give up. We were going to keep trying after tour and start a family of our own, even if we die trying.

Just the thought of having a chance to start a family with Zayn makes me all giddy inside. But then now that we've been actually trying to have our own family, it all seems like a dream; Unreal.

Zayn's everything I could ever want. He's everything I could ever need. And the fact that I'll get to spend the rest of my life here with him, well, that's one of the most amazing and comforting feelings I have ever felt.

My attention was never on the movie playing, yet on the breathtaking boy who was wrapped up in my arms, head on my chest. I noticed though, that he was gazing down at my exposed thighs which made me move around uncomfortably as I became self conscious.

He always seemed to do this while I was wearing nothing but a pair of shorts or boxers, but there was something else in the way he was looking at me that made me rethink getting all self conscious. He seemed to look at me with a fondness in which I could not understand.

So after a minute of feeling awkward, I was finally able to sit still and relax under his intense stare. He looked hesitant about something, but as much as I tried I couldn't see through his facade which held no emotion.

His eyes told me something else; Hesitating myself, unsure of what I was doing would help, I slipped my hand over his and looped my fingers in between his fingers, moving our intertwined fingers slowly and unsurely.

He looked confused, but I didn't stop until his hand lay on top of my thigh. A shaky breath had left his lips, but I just run my thumb over the back of his hand in reassurance.

"Baby you're allowed to touch me, you don't have to be scared." I offered him a small smile and watched as a blush painted his cheeks a bright red. He buried his face deep into my hoodie which made me chuckle as I kissed the top of his head.

Although he's still so shy to do things with me, wether it's saying his opinion on how he wants to spend the day or him touching me in ways that I've told him he can, he's always so shy and in an enclosed shell he's built for himself, no matter how much reassurance you give him, saying that it's okay to do those things.

After some time, I had noticed that he began to caress my skin with his thumb, before soon enough he was moving his hand up and down my leg in a comforting manner but still in a hesitant way as if he's scared I'll yell at him for doing something wrong.

"H-Hazzy?" His voice had snapped me out of my thoughts, and I angled my head down to look him in the eyes and show him that I was listening loud and clear.

He shifted once all of my attention was on him, his face flushing red as he looked away and opened his mouth, trying to form his words.

This was different than usual; Zayn normally doesn't take that much time to think about what he's saying which is why his stutter isn't getting any better.

He looked deep in thought for a few seconds before he began to talk. "Y-you ha-h-have p-pre-pretty l-legs H-Hazza." Little giggles could be heard as he hides his face into the crook of my neck.

"Is that why you were staring?" I could feel the smirk form on my face as the realization why he was staring hit me.

He nodded his head a little, and I laugh quietly as I run a hand up and down his side. His eyes landed back on where his hand had stilled, a little smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. "H-Hazzy t-th-think h-his l-legs a-are pr-pretty?" He looked up to me with his eyes big and bright.

I didn't want to upset him and ruin his happy mood which has been there for a few days now. "Yeah of course Princess." It didn't look like he believed me, but I thought he did. So I was surprised when he moved his body so that he could press little kisses all along my uncovered thighs.

I felt vulnerable like this, him pressing kisses to my skin and making sure to not miss a single spot. But then again I trust him with everything I have, so that vulnerability was shadowed by the love I felt with each peck of his lips.

He sat back up again and let his eyes meet mine. "H-Hazzy l-like h-is l-l-legs n-ow?" His eyes were searching mine, and my breath caught in my throat as I just took in all of his beautiful features. I had subconsciously let the back of my hand brush against his cheek, and I blink out of my daze, smiling down at him.

"Yeah Baby, I do. Thank you." Pressing a long kiss to his forehead I sigh out in content, pulling him onto my lap so that he was straddling me with his arms wrapped tightly around my neck.

Wishing they could stay like this forever in each other's arms, I fell asleep with the man I love pressed against me, cuddled up on my chest.

Okay so like I'm real tired and it's been like, a month since this has been last updated lmao.

I AM SO SO SORRY I JUST HAD SO MANY IDEAS BUT NO MOTIVATION AT ALL AFTER WRITING ALREADY 15 CHAPTER!!!

But I just had this random thought and idea so I'm like why not just write some chapters and satisfy the people 🤷‍♀️

But yeah so what's going to happen is I'm going to take my time and write these chaps that I have left and get all of them ideas out.

So every time I finish one chap, instead of  doing a whole bunch and posting them all at a time ima post one chap at a time once I finish writing it and hopefully don't keep y'all waiting lmao

Anyways have a great day and I'll try to update soon but knowing me I just hope that isn't another whole aśś month 😭🤦‍♀️

Yeah I'm also sorry about making y'all wait that long 👀

ALSO WAIT SO MOST KNOW THAT WE HAD A DOG BUT SHE PASSED IN NOVEMBER AT THE AGE OF 10 BUT MY FAM HAS DECIDED THAT WE'RE PRETTY MUCH READY SO MY MOM SENT AN APPLICATION FOR THIS ADORABLE HUSKY MIX WHOS ONLY A MONTH OLD AND IS THE CUTEST THING EVER

SO WE MIGHT NOT BE THE ONES WHO GET TO ADOPT HIM BUT IF NOT THERES OTHER PUPPIES BUT I REALLY HOPE WE DO GET HIM BECAUSE HE SEEMS PERFECT FOR US

But yeah I just wanted to say this because I'm so happy rn like bro y'all can't even imagine like EVEN IF WE DONT GET HIM IM STILL SO HAPPY THAT MY MOM AGREED TO ACTUALLY GET ANOTHER DOG EVEN IF WE ALL KNOW HE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TI REPLACE MISHKA BUT YEAH IM SO HAPPY ANAHZBVZBZ

Yeah that's all I had to say 👁👄👁

-Emma