IN THE MIDDLE OF NOTHINGNESS™ [COMPLETED]

Facade

Everyday has become a daunting task
One more day that I'll have to live
Smile and survive
Show how happy I am
When that's Exactly what I am not.
I don't like being sad, nobody does
But what can I do?
I can't get out of this sadness
This darkness
This self loathe and the eternal pit of self hatred
Society gives me advice
To listen to music
To read
To go for a walk
Don't you think I have tried?
But I can't tell them
I can't tell them how Ionely I feel
Or how my mind is a complete mess
Of how I cry during nights
And spend my days in regrets.
Because being flawed is weak
And I can't bear being vulnerable to other's hatred.
So
I put up a fake facade
The image of a perfect girl
She's strong
She's intelligent
She's everyone's favourite
She's always happy
No flaws
No problems in life
Perfect friends
Perfect family
Perfect scores
Because it's easy that way.

And i live these two lives
The perfect one that I spend during the day
And the other one that starts late at night.

(c) Ishita Singh