Just Feelings

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i dont want to do anything 

i dont want to eat

i dont want to think

i dont think i want to cry

but i do

i wanna cry so badly just to let everything out i just wanna lay in someones arms and let the darkness consume me for a while while i sit there

ive been talking to aidan a lot recently, its really nice i really like it. its honestly really reassuring that he still likes me as a friend

im talking to this other guy and hes annoying me because he wants to talk to me all the time and he keeps calling me pretty and stuff like thanks but i dont always wanna talk about our looks

ive also gotten more lazy with what i look like like this morning i didnt wanna wear eyeliner and my mom got mad at me for being lazy and she said that im putting my stupid people and games ahead of everything else again

i kept seeing my face today in the reflection of my chromebook and in the mirrors at school and it makes me disgusted .

i hate how i look without my eyeliner . i think it makes me look at least a little bit better i dont know how people can actually even call me pretty

i think my diets been lacking lately, that or its growing i cant really tell .  

im gonna go to bed now, i know this is a bit of a shorter one but sometimes you should get things out before bottling them all up