Muriel has had her life sculpted and figured out by her well-renowned defense attorney father since she was a child. His Moto: Head down, do your schoolwork, be the best, and always do the right thing.
But what happens when she catches her father wi...
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Age 19 Ollie Age 18
"I think it's a bad idea, Mur. You're rushing into it. Just let it happen organically." Gemma's voice coaxes through the phone speaker as I walk the salted sidewalks towards Jeremy's apartment complex.
"No. This is what's supposed to happen. We dated, we've been official for six months, he's said he loves me, it's time-."
"But do you love him?" She cuts me off quickly. I have no idea why shes fighting me on this. I called her for some much needed advice so I don't make a fool of myself, not to be talked out of it.
"Of course I do." I force a small laugh and ignore the little voice telling me that it wasn't sure.
How do you know once you're in love anyways? Everyone says 'When you know, you know.' But I don't know if I really believe that. Those emotions just don't work on me, I guess. I'm too practical, too realistic. I'm physically and emotionally attracted to Jeremy and he is everything I want in a boyfriend so this next step in our relationship is what I want to happen.
"I don't think you do. If you did, you wouldn't have planned this weird-as-hell date. Who in the world has their Virginity Card Loss day planned on their calendar?" She argues again.
I stop in my tracks and stuff my cold hand in my sweatshirt pocket, "Why are you argueing me on this, Gem? You didn't love what the heck his name was when you lost yours?"
"Because I know he's not the right guy for you. I know it. And I want your first time to be special. Not like this, not planned out on your calendar like one of your assignments for your classes."
"It's not that big of deal-."
"Well it should be. Have you talked to Ollie? You should call him and get his opinion-."
I can't help but laugh, while my heart stings a little. "Ollie? I haven't talked to Ollie since Cornwall at Christmas and he was...He...I don't know why he was so distant, there is no way I'd call him about this right now."
The truth is Ollie straight out ignored me two months ago when we went to Cornwall for Christmas. At first, I thought the distance was due to his filming schedule, but once I realized his cold-shoulder continued in person, I stopped embarrassing myself and stopped trying to start each and every conversation and stopped following him around.
Clearly, he was too busy for me.
I had thought he would be excited for me, because I'd finally had my first boyfriend and first kiss, but he wouldn't hear any of it.
Ollie's acting career was really starting to kick off, and I was so excited for him, so I didn't want to stress him out with my questions about sex or stuff like that. He had much more important things to focus on. So, I've kept my distance and kept from reaching out with my jovial situation.
