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Chapter 12

*I'm going to try using -- instead of the em dashes because I realized that wattpad isn't so friendly towards them*

°Chan°

"What am I doing, what am I doing? Is this really what I want? Christopher, use. Your. brain cells!..."

Pacing, pacing, pacing. That is what is going on currently and I honestly think I'm going insane--wait--scratch that, I am going insane. I am currently just pacing the floors of this convenient store nearby the park for--God knows how long--and at this point, the tiled floor might as well be worn just by my radiating stress and anxiety.

The thing is, I don't really have a reason for putting myself under this much of stress, but at this point, I couldn't really stop myself. I feel like a bullet that is just heading straight for an unknown destination. Like where is this going to go and am I prepared for the worst case? Well, to be honest, I didn't think of the possibility of being rejected... I mean all I wanted was just to confess and be over with it.

"Okay, I'm just going to say it and if they reject me, then--"

"Hey, Channie Hyung. Jisung got me to come and check on you, so you good? Also who's going to reject you?"

Lifting my head up during my (attempt of) self-motivational speech, I notice the familiar voice that snaps me back into reality: Changbin. Standing there stunned, I clearly didn't expect his sudden arrival, so it was understandable that he once again repeats his question.

"U-u-umh, yeah about that I need to t-talk to you guys... L-like the both of you guys."

Finally responding to Changbin's concern, I begin to mentally snap and scold myself because of clearly displayed nervousness. I clearly didn't want to make that clear even before the actual "thing". Now, after my reply, I begin feeling myself being pulled by the wrist.

"Yeah sure, but let's get the food before heading back to our hungry squirrel."

Chuckling at Changbin's words, we quickly past through the place mindlessly picking out snacks and other foods. Once we made it to the check out, I made sure to block any of Changbin's advancements to pay. To say the least a mini battle had ensued over a simple bill and I don't regret winning.

"I wanted to pay, but no, I couldn't because of you."

"Sulky baby, aren't you now? Anyways, I get to pay this time because you just payed not too long ago," after hearing the smaller boy mumble under his breath, I chuckle lightly at his child-like whines before he continues his grumbles and let out a single reluctant "fine".

"Alright, alright, I'll let you pay next time, happy now?"

Chuckling once more, I pick up a barely audible grumble from Changbin's whining. Retiring to his final answer of a grumbled and resistance, I let him be until we reached the squirrel who was happily waiting for our arrival back.

"FOOD!" exclaims cut through Changbin's and our conversation suddenly. Tracing back to the origin of sound, both us seen to notice the bright-eyed boy bouncing with excitement just at the sight of food. I felt my eyes roll playfully as I couldn't help be amused by the youngest boy's glee.

"I see you that you clearly missed us."

"I mean, I love you guys too, but~... Food is love right now-anyways, give me my chips please!"

"Wow, I'm offended." We once again erupt in laughter as both Jisung and I was definitely not expecting Changbin's abrupt and sarcastic comment. As the excitement downs, we began to pass around the purchased food and drinks.

"Oh, Hyung, didn't you say, you want to tell us something?"

Changbin then speaks up just as he was sipping from a bottle of soda. Just like a switch that was triggered, I instantly become once again nervous.

Okay. You can do this. Just tell them you like them and it will be done and dusted with.

"Umm... Yeah, I do--how do I say this? I-i guess I'll just get it off my chest," I began before take my last breath before pushing through the wall. "I guess--screw it--I like you guys. I mean, I think... I... Love you."

Now looking down, I could barely face their gazes. I didn't want to know the results; what could it be? I just don't want to face reality. At least, I got it off my chest, however, it just started to settle that if they were to reject (it was likely), I would loose my only friends and as well as my chance of love.

What would I do then? I can't just give up on my soulmates, right?... Right?