Poetry

Camouflage

I can only speak the lies I've been told.
That's the only truth
I don't know what's wrong or right anymore...
My rainbow went black
Long long ago...
I feel numb. I've lost my soul
I can only speak the lies that I've been told.

I can't describe my shape to you
I've been molded but they never told
Told me anything before
But it was never delicate for sure.
Scars on my skin are my new fingerprints
I shine from above but I'm not gold
I can only speak the lies I've been told

I can't describe my life to you
That's a story I never wrote.
It was a blank mind, I can't even blink,
It could've been luminous
Chose to pour the black ink.
I can't sleep, I see ghosts
They whisper to me "you gotta be bold".
I gulp my words and my fear gulps me
I can only speak the lies I've been told.

Another day, another path
that I never chose,
I'm tired of walking
I'm getting old.
My feet are trembling
Got a sore throat,
I feel like I can't breathe anymore.
Tried to become me, I never did it before
I feel like it's foolish to do so
I'm enslaved to speak the lies I've been told.

~Smriti Jha