Poetry

Escapism

Can somebody hear me?
I'm screaming...
Slowly and slowly
I'm drowning...

The bog of fears
ain't letting me leave
It's hard to believe...
It's hard to believe...

I opened my eyes and
it feels like I was dreaming.

My hands are trembling
like I've committed a crime...
I'm not even myself,
I've been living in Disguise
this whole life of mine.

I've reached the end,
The fire inside me
turned my soul into ashes
It's enough!
Now I can't pretend.

I tried to pull myself up
But I'm still drowning...

The bog of fears
ain't letting me leave
It's hard to believe...
It's hard to believe...

I opened my eyes and
it feels like I was dreaming.

My words are like poison,
If I speak, they kill 'em...
I've been told to keep quiet...
I saw sins,
But, I've thrown them out of my sight.

Closed my eyes,
don't wanna think anymore...
Do they actually don't see what I see?
Or they just ignore?

I tried to stand out of the box,
I got beaten up
Now, I can't even stand on my feet...
It's hard to believe...
It's hard to believe...

I opened my eyes,
Still, feels like I was dreaming.

~Smriti
(April 27, 2020)
(12:26 AM)