The boys by my side

Shower

Suga helps me wash my hair and my body. He doesn't feel me up too much. He helps dry me and helps me dress.  He helps me back to my bed. I lay down exhausted. He get in bed beside me and holds me. I fall asleep. 

I wake up and I am alone again. I look around to see flowers everywhere. Sunflowers , roses , plum blossoms and lilies.  There are cards on all the flowers. I get up to read them. There is huge one from all the guys. One is from Jackson. Another from Big Hit. I even have one Jay Park. It is so nice because being here is so boring. I just want to go home.  I want to see my sister and the girls.  

My door opens and Ava walks in. 

" Your awake! Every time I come in here you sleeping.  " Ava runs over to hug me

I hug her back and put her at a arms length. I check her over and only see so small bruises on her arms but nothing to bad.

" I am so glad you are ok... I woke up here and thought the worst." Me

" I am lucky you got the worst of it because how we were hit. " Ava

We sit on my bed.

" I have to tell you something but I don't want it to leave this room..." me

" Ok... are you really ok? Suga and Namjoon told me you were just really sleepy.... " Ava

" I was ... I am but this is serious ..." me

" Well... don't keep me waiting..." Ava

" I was pregnant but it was a eptopic pregnancy... the crash caused me to bleed out into my abdomen and I lost my baby and my Fallopian tube. " me

" Wow... Mae... that's so tragic.. I am so sorry .." Ava

" I want this to stay here and not leave this room. I want to move on and heal from this fucking ordeal... I want to go home ..." me

" Then let's get you home... you have plenty of people to be with you ... I will go find the doctor" Ava

She hugs me again.  She walks out and I pull my cover up to my chin. It is freezing in here. The doctor walks back in with Ava.

" Miss. Lee you may go home today.. I will start the discharge paperwork. How does a hour sound? You should arrange a ride home. I will go start the paperwork and have a nurse give you instructions. You cast should be on for 6 weeks... not to bad you seem like a quick healer." Doctor

" Thank you ... I can't wait to go home" me

Ava gives me two thumb up. The doctor leaves.

" Can you get me a coffee ? I have a headache from caffeine withdrawals.. the coffee here is brown water..." me

" Sure there is a coffee shop close.. I will be back ... wait you want some food?" Ava

" Maybe something sweet? You know what I like..." me

"'You got it.." Ava

I turn on the TV see the news. The weather is beautiful and I have been stuck in here. It's 50 today. I can't wait for some fresh air.  Ava come
Back with coffee and a red bean fish shaped cake.

" The boys sent a car.. we can leave when you're paperwork is signed." Ava

" Do I have clothes to wear home? I am guessing my clothes were ruined.." me

" Yes. Jimin and Ji packed you a bag. " Ava

She hands me a bag with a brush , clothes and a note.

Mae,
I packed you these clothes. Jimin picked out your bra and underwear. Which he enjoyed to
Much! He is a pervert.. but he is my pervert. Hope you are feeling better. Sorry they wouldn't let us come see you. Privacy of the VIP wing of the hospital.

Love , Ji Ae

She packed me a white long sleeve tee shirt and a cute Gucci sweater. Dark jeans and black high top converse. Jimin..🙄 packed me a white bra and black and white lace underwear which I have never seen. Are these even mine?! Oh.. no there not. They are size small. I wear medium. Guess no panties till
I get home! I am going to smack that boy!!

I go the bathrooms md dress quickly. The nurse is back with my papers and I sign. We go down a private elevator and the car is waiting for us. The driver opens the door. Namjoon is waiting for me inside.

"I will ride back in the car behind you with V." Ava point the other van behind us. I nod and climb in next to Namjoon.

" Sorry I had to wait here .. don't want to much chance for rumors about us. " Namjoon

" I understand.. but I am so glad to see you." Me

He takes my hand and kisses it. Then he holds my hand as we drive away.

" Oh, no. Where will I live if Ava has my room?" Me

" Baby... with me at our house of course.." Namjoon

" Sorry .. I forgot we talked about that in the car before the crash... my brain wants to forget the accident. .. it is still fuzzy.." me

" Completely understandable... are you tired?" Namjoon

" No .. I have slept to much.. have I missed anything good?" Me

" Your mom is now my best friend.. she wanted to fly here but Ava me I talked her out of it.. she just knows of the broken arm.. I figured you should decide if you want to tell her about... you know " Namjoon sighs

I feel tears forming. Shit ! This sucks! I feel
So bad the one of them lost a baby too. I am not ready to have children but I still would have loved and cared for my child . That child was made from
a loving relationship. He looks at me and he looks so sad.

" I have to tell you I thought the worst when I saw the scene of the accident it look so bad.. I thought I lost you... I did lose a part of you .. I am so sad about losing our baby.. we can try again one day when we are married.." Namjoon

" That's exactly what I would want for our children " me

" Children? As in more then one?" Namjoon

He winks. I roll my eyes.

" Yes but we can keep practicing safe sex until then... no cumming in me" me

" Please... don't.. even talk about sex.. it feels like forever.. I miss it now that is gone " Namjoon

" Aww... I miss your penis too. Joonie the doctor said as long as was comfortable with putting your beautiful long dick inside me.. we can do it as soon as we get home..." I wink at him

His eyes go wide.

"Also.. Jimin packed me underwear that is not mine... so I am wearing none.." me

" Wow.." Namjoon