Blank. Complete blank I didn't have an idea in mind and I think I was losing it. Day turned into weeks and I became stressed so stressed I missed my period! Yes, I understand how bad it is but hey once I get a story out just maybe I would feel better.
Shaking my head I knew I was wrong and being a writer is fucking hard, trying to find something to write everyday hits me like my body is getting thrown against a wall, and yes it's a bit much but I do love writing...for fun.
The excitement is still there, though, my job really needs this last chapter and I have nothing for it. How do I go on writing more than 30 chapters to the end and not having a single thing? How do I want to end this? Happy of course but it can't be like the same old happy endings something more, something to grab the readers and me. I want to write something that surprises me every time I decide to reread it or someone tells me about it.
I sat the complete in my workroom typing nothing. I faked it. I was fake typing that's how bored I got thinking about something to put on this damn complete. I thought maybe rereading the chapters I wrote would help come up with anything but nope. I wasted my time and life. My boyfriend always comes in and checks on me, I saw it in his eyes how worried he was for me and I didn't blame him, I'm worried for myself! This time he really called himself helping me; massaging my neck and shoulders with those vein hands of his and his strong grab that kindly distracted me.
Not saying anything was hard but not as hard as trying to get words into this computer.
Felix kissed my neck and bent over to whisper into my ear, "Is there anything I can do to help you?".
Oh, how his words welcomed my skin when his warm breath hit my neck. I shifted my head towards him smiling slightly, "Bae, nothing wrong. It's just this damn blank screen that's killing me but thanks for asking".
I said turning back as the cursed screen that clearly hated me as well as my own mind. My hands sat on top of the keyboard with a frown. Felix was still standing behind me and so happen reached over grabbing the Hershey bar I had sitting at my desktop and breaking a piece of it off then placing it between my teeth.
Glancing over I saw Felix stare me straight in the face and I just realized I did offer him any, "oh, bae do you want–".
I tried. I really tried getting the words out with the chocolate between my teeth but that didn't make me stop my sentence. It was Felix that opened his mouth wide kissing my lips then biting the other half of the piece of chocolate. I swear at that moment all I saw was his piercing eyes shut closely tight and his nose touching my cheek as his fingers ran across my jawline.
He pulled away as I was lost with words just eyeing the melted chocolate on his lips while he pushed the candy into his mouth with his finger and licking it clean.
I came to my senses chuckling, "This isn't the time".
Letting him know that I have to much work to be done and I can't spend it goofing off. Trust me when I said this all that was in my mind was our lips touching and making that chocolate bar melt between our mouths was the biggest turn on I think I melted my brain as well. Felix didn't much to the hint but instead he kissed my shoulder and neck with a wide-open kiss.
"Take a break. It's been forever since we spent time together and I miss every inch of you beside me".
He made me giggle in my chair as I try to shake out his gifted hands and a sweet mouth that bet still tasted like Hershey's.
"This room became your bedroom and I honestly can't stand it. Please, come to bed", he whined, like a kitten with his big eyes and his freckles reminded him of whiskers.
"You already know I won't be able to sleep if I don't get this done".
"Who said we had to go to sleep?", he said, like a devious kitten trying to be sneaky.
