Time faded and I noticed how venti got more popular from time to time
People where kind of forgetting about me , not that it's bad but it's just kind of sad since my friends ... what ever
Venti and I kind of went from friends to just roommates and I hated it so much
I hated how people always distanced themselves from me
I mean I felt really empty and lonely at the moment even tho I had ganyu
What if ganyu will forget about me when she gets together with keqing ?
I looked at my phone , 2 am already ? Maybe writing some story's will get these thoughts of my mind
I tried writing but the text got unreadable again and again due to my tears
Then I'll just take a new paper
Maybe I could write a new story about the me who I wanna be ?
I wrote for a while when I looked at the clock again 3 am and I barely wrote anything , I'll just go to sleep it's the best for me
I couldn't sleep in for ever , my brain was filled with thoughts
Mostly being scared to end up all alone
~next morning~
The next morning came I woke up and did all this morning stuff
I walked towards class when I saw ganyu and keqing together holding hands , they didn't even seem to notice me
"Oh hey ganyu , hi-"
"Oh yea hi xiao" and they ignored me
I went to class keeping my head down
"Hey xiao ? Are you okay ?" Oh xingqiu
"Oh yea yea all good"
"That doesn't sound honest" shhhh it is totally
Honest
"I got like 3 hours of sleep I'm way too tired for school"
"Understandable , well then see you later" and he left again
I noticed venti sat somewhere else today
Next to some random girl , they looked happy
Understandable I look horrible and I'm always way too mean
The day passed with me being lonely and everyone of my friends having fun
As soon as school ended I made my way to the roof top to get some fresh air
After I arrived I slid down a wall and pulled my knees up to my chest .
Why is live always leaving me behind
And another week passed with me crying myself to sleep waking up doing my hair going to class going back to bed
And another week
And another week
And another week
I lost count how many weeks it was , all I knew was that I abated it here I hated it at "home" i have so where to do
What's gonna happen next , venti moving out ? All of them starting to bully me
"Xiao tell me what's wrong"
"TeLl Me WhAtS wRoNg you guys have been fucking ignoring me since weeks and didn't EVEN BOTHER FUCKING TALKING TO ME ,
nobody of any of my friends even talked to me ,non of them not even you
Even tho we were best friends
well I guess I was just a space holder for everyone huh ?"
I stood up went down from the roof and walked
To the dorm slamming my room door
I hate me , I hate everything , why does not even a single soul reach out to me
So that's how my -fairytale- will go
The misunderstood forgotten character who was never important
What if I would just run away
