Bartender / M.P

046.

I crawled up as I wrap the blanket around my body, I pulled the other pillow that Mattia usually uses when he sleeps over and used it to wipe my tears before hugging it tight

I flip around and picked up my phone, no notifications and it was now 3:52 am

Mattia never came back and I've been waiting for him since he left, I know I should be mad at him but I feel nothing but fucking stupid

He was over reacting and had no right to act the way he did but I miss him

I haven't been able to sleep, I can't sleep, I pulled the  blanket off of me and walked to my bathroom

I turned the light on making my eyes quickly shut close "shit" I whisper as the bright light nearly blinded me

I slowly open the back up before rubbing them, I fully opened my eyes and looked in the mirror

My eye lids were super puffed up and slightly red, my nose was stuffed, I had huge purple eye bags, and I still had Mattias shirt on

I went back in my room and got some clothes on before hopping in the shower

I had work today, and I know it was still pretty early to be getting ready but I had nothing else to do

When I finished getting ready I decided on driving around before going to work

Ten minutes later of driving around I ended up at Mattias house

I knocked and waited a second before knocking again, after a couple of minutes Alejandro opened the door

"Oh hey" she said a little shocked "haven't seen you around lately, it's also like 6 In the morning...what happened?" He asked

"I was wondering if Mattia was here" I say

"Nope" he shakes his head "I thought he was staying with you?"

"He was, he just left my house yesterday and never came back so I thought he came here" I said shyly not wanting to tell him that I got into an argument with Mattia

"We'll he did come last night but he just got clothes and left" Alejandro said

"Did he say where he was going?" I asked

"No" he shook his head "and he looked to mad to want to talk so me and kairi just let him do what he needed to do" he shrugs his shoulders

"Are you sure he's not here? Your not making this up?" I ask unsure

"Why would I lie, you can go in his room and check if you want to, he's not here" Alejandro said

"No that's fine, thank you" I frown

"Wait so does this mean I got a chance?" He asks "since you know...you and Mattia didn't work out-"

"No" I quickly answer "I have to get to work, see you around" I say walking back to my car

***

"Hey Angie" I said as I walk into my job

"Hey Bella, your in kinda early" the lady behind the  front desk says

"Yeah I had trouble sleeping so I just decided to come to work early since I had nothing better to do" I said

"Yeah I think your sleeping problem is quite noticeable" she said "your eyes are all puffy and purple"

"Yeah I'm aware of my looks" we laugh

"We'll Warren is in his office, I think he's in a meeting or something, you should ask him for more hours today so you can get paid while your here" Angie said