Forbidden Love

Part 14

I have been living with April and Jackson for some months now and it was great. I started my junior year when I first moved in and I was honestly doing great in school too. I have all A's and at the top of my class. Adam has been doing really good in school and hockey too. I go to all his games to cheer him on, along Charlie, Julie, Connie, and Guy. My due date is January 15th and I was so eager to have this baby. I have about 2 months left to get prepared and things like that. Adam's parents have actually been really nice to me and they're as excited for this baby as everyone else is! Well, except for my mom. We haven't spoken much but she thinks it's a bad idea that I live with Jackson. She's yelled and cried and thrown things...she's been drinking a lot now too. I really hate seeing her turn out like this. The Avery's moved Harriets room closer to theirs and gave me and the baby the Jack and Jill bedrooms. They're pretty big and nice.

Adam has been coming over as much as he could. He always rubs my belly and talks to it in a high pitched voice. It's the cutest thing. He was coming over today after practice to hang out. Everyone else was gone for the weekend. They were all in Seattle visiting Jackson's parents. I was going to go but I'm too pregnant.

I hear Adam pull into the driveway and I get up from the couch and walk to the door but he walks in before I could get there. "You should keep the door locked Y/n. Someone could break in." He kisses me. "I unlocked it for you, it's not always unlocked." I went upstairs to my bedroom and sat on the bed and he sits with me. "It's late, aren't you tired?" He rubs my leg and lightly tickles it."A little but not enough to actually be able to fall asleep." I smile.

He looks down at me with a strange face, "Y/n...can I ask you something?" I nod and turn towards him more. "I- you can say no too. I don't want you to think I'm pressuring you..." I can tell he's getting nervous which makes me nervous. "Can we have sex?" He asks quietly. I sit there for a second not knowing what to say so I just kiss him. Very aggressively. I've missed being intimate like this with him but I didn't think he did. He turns us over and gets on top of me but I start to feel like I'm suffocating. I was pretty big and I wasn't comfortable "Adam.." he keeps going and takes my shirt off throwing it across the room which instantly causes me to freak out. "Adam get off of me!" I yell and shove him. He gets off of me and sits there looking at me. I start to cry and I wrap the comforter around me.

"I'm sorry sweetheart. I didn't mean to..." his voice cracks and I feel horrible for freaking out. "No Adam. I'm sorry, it's just that I don't want you to see my body like this. I thought I wouldn't care but I do. I look gross." I tighten the blanket around me and he comes over to me and holds me. "You don't ever have to cover up for me. You know I'd never judge you, you're perfect." He smiles putting his hands in my hair and kissing my head. "I'm going to leave though, I'll give you space and see you tomorrow." He gets up and leaves.

I get into the shower and change. I get back into bed and check my phone. The group chat was crazy right now because Julie and Charlie have been 'getting it on' as Guy would say but Julie's a crazy girl, nobody can hold her down. Charlie wants more but she's not sure. I keep looking through my messages and I see that my mom texted me

Mama: I've gotten sober. Been sober for a week now and im trying to work on myself. I miss you baby, and I want to be in you and your baby boy's life. I realized I cannot live without you and I miss you. Im so sorry sweetie.

Seeing that made my heart sink. I really missed her, even though she mentally abused me growing up and didn't approve of me and my boyfriend. I wanted her around and I want her to be a grandmother to my baby.

Y/n: I miss you too, I'm glad you're getting better.

We go back and forth catching up and I can't help but smile.

I'm going to try to update as much as possible again ◡̈
~B