During The Pandemic (Poetry)

twelve >>> That Year of 2017

I use to miss you,
nowadays I just think of you
as someone I fell for when I shouldn't of.

You helped me get over my fears,
at least around others,
in public whenever we were together
while I was getting lost
in your brown eyes that year.

I knew it was my problem
when people weren't
the biggest fans of us
and how we were doing it
on the down low.
People still knew,
the word was getting out
but you were still fooling around
with a guy who didn't treat you so nice.
And if I recall
you're the one who told me
you trusted me more than anybody.
What happened to that trust?

Remember when I said
I was going to kiss you
and you told me to do it?
I regret not doing it,
but knew I wasn't going to
considering we were in a classroom
full of students,
I not yet fully accepting of who I am
plus the fact you still had a boyfriend.
But I was still falling head over heels for you.
Sad we couldn't even hold onto our friendship
since we were friends first before flirting
and screwing things up.